lalala

2011-11-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

Been a month... since i go to bed everynight... thinking, why is the space beside me so empty? and waking up everyday... going... was it just a nightmare, or are you really gone?

I love you, and i miss you... alot. You know that don't you. You can see that from where you are right...? I hope you didnt suffer, you didnt feel lonely when you left us...

We are sorry we weren't the last one you saw before you left... we're sorry if whatever we did were what caused you to leave us..

i miss you alot.... alot... :(

i'm sorry.. i have to go n study. u know how much i want to write this post don't you. you read my diary already right? i know u did.

2011-09-01T03:17:00.001+08:00

Free girl :)

i love suckseeedd

i love nong kao :))))

2011-08-26T02:27:00.001+08:00

well well. here i am again...

T_T

byebye.... im too emo to post anything.. :(

2011-08-22T02:14:00.000+08:00

hi angeline! this post's just for you! :D

let just ignore whatever happened to me in personal life, cos you'd have known had i want you to. if you don't, it's either cos i haven had time... or cos it seems like you didnt bother about me.

school's been like crap. no, it's not the core modules that are killing me. IT'S THE ELECTIVES.

just like how H1s were killer for me, and H2 were the only hope i have to promote/excel...

i seriously have absolutely no idea why are people fighting to be in business course.
or econs, for that matter.

these two subject just sucks and do not at all, make sense to me.
or isit just me? idk....

i miss my jc life :(....

im gna change my blog song (if it's even playing - -''') soon...
and it would be my ringtone too....!

i need to find more targets so i can divert my attention.... at the current position i'll end up being in the same shit all over again :(

and i promise to keep my mouth shut this time....

and i think i'm gonna be the first one to use s/u in yr1 sem1 T.T i suck :(.

good night :( i mean, good morning.

2011-07-20T02:24:00.000+08:00

im so fickle!!!!! SIGH T_T

i really am VERY VERY VERY fickle.... and i think it's quite sad. TT_TT

so sad.

too sad.

very sad right nowww :(.

i feel sad for my previous crush, and sad for my current one...
and devastated for my future boyfriend.. if i'm ever gonna get one...

the previous one was so serious...

yet i found a new one.
im confused.

2011-07-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

it's almost half past 2, and i'm blogging.
why? because i kept thinking about you... that i can't sleep...

i sound like some of those when i see their blog i go "omg u loser".

now i am the loser...

sorry i've nowhere else to rant. i shall do it here then.

and it happenned again... when i appear online on my fb chat list....

you go offline.

or am i just thinking too much? idk... T_T

2011-06-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

So.. if you've realised... I've stopped harassing you and have disappeared from your life for one week (im quite amazed).

i promise to remain a good girl... but i think i might be back to harass you again soon....

SIGH. T_T

this is torturous. too torturous....
and i'm pretty jealous of all your juniors. esp those in your group.. TT_TT

very very jealous.

2011-06-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

I'm really trying to think positive... trying to think that no, you're NOT avoiding me...

but i can't. Cos to me, it seems like you ARE avoiding me...

i can wait, i AM willing to wait... but what i'm scared of is...

you'll be attached soon...

bloody hell can someone help me or sth. black magic or whatever- -'''

sigh. :'(

2011-06-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

it wasn't just once...

it's like twice in a row now... where as soon as i appear online in fb... you'll go offline.

or is it just pure coincidental? definitely hope so...

because at where i am now... my heart's shattered enough...

i don't know how much more it's gonna hurt, what i know is i'm more than willing to take all the pain. i'm just not ready to let you go yet...

noone has ever made me lost appetite for this long before. it's just you.

i'm sorry if i'm causing you much discomfort....

2011-06-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

i've 2 students taking exams tmr

pleaseee passss :(

n like... idk T_T.

i like you too much and it's quite sad...
btw, to all my friends out there, don't bother telling me to find a new one. u know i'm stubborn. and u know, i don't like to be hurt. so please don't TT_TT.

all u have to do is listen to my ranting :( m so sorry. :(.

2011-06-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

talking to your friend's much easier than talking to you.. even when i ask them even more questions.. T_T

sigh..... wats wrong with me :(

2011-06-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

i've never been like this before, not once.
not that i remembered anyway....
i've never like sit there and daydream about everything.. like how i am doing right now.

n this is so not good....

T_T

but what to do...?

:'(

2011-06-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

If home is where the heart is... then i think you are my home.

(and i may have quite a few home ;))) ) HAHAHA.

on tuesday,

i planned to walk frm my house to tanah merah mrt, and back, cos i feel too bloated.
so i went down.. and when i opened my condo's gate...

RING.

ok, my junior called me and tel me to go join them at TJ for steamboat. YAY. (bloatedness x10)

so i went and took lots of pics of the sch cos i miss it so much hoho.

i have one other reason to miss my school

Today,
i miss the bus. not one. 2 buses.
after that i saw the bus i want to change to. i got down the first bus.

BLOODY HELL THE DAMN BUS WAS RIGHT BEHIND AT THE PREVIOUS STOP WHY THE CRAP DID THE DAMN BUS TAKE SO LONG TO REACH WHEN I WAS WAITING?

n cos that bus TOOK SO LONG,
I MISS 2 OTHER BUSES.

usually if i have cls at 3.15, i'll leave my house at 2.15

i bloody left my house at 2 today

AND I WAS LIKE LATE.

TRUST ME I'M DAMN PISSED.

I'm in a very bad mood today. VERY VERY BAD MOOD TODAY.
so bloody hell, leave me alone.

i got home, i saw my fb notif

i was over the moon.
a minute after that, i'm back in hell again.

fml, i hope she alr has a boyfriend so you have no hope. zzzz

bye

2011-06-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

It feel so empty, not seeing your name reflected anywhere in my fb notif :(
so, i'm gonna try to blog everyday.
shd i? hahha. i'm quite bored actually......

so i went out with zoe and ellery today... because they happen to bump into each other at some mall opposite where they live. (yes, they stay so near but don see each other)

had a great time telling them about my life... which they decided was like a primary school tale more than a JC tale. m young at heart ;) *winks*

i rly think if they didnt bump into each other i prob wont see ellery for a life time - -'' seriously.

and he was such a gentleman. like. wow. i told them just ice water (cos like their drinks r expensive) he actually ordered a drink for me.

and when the bill came. he paid for everything.

wow. like wow. srsly. ohmygod hahahaha.

apart from that i have this very nostalgic feeling about studying in TJ library with people like... Angeline, serene, yingtai.... and a lot of other ppl like ys, yimin, chloe, noelle, shaun.... (n i realised apart from the 1st 2 the rest are like... not my class)

i'm sounding like some old woman reminiscing about my past. :(

i saw a 11.11, and was never this enthu about 11.11 before. i made a wish.

i think i was too enthu my tongue got tied - -''' ahaha.

:(

2011-06-06T03:39:00.001+08:00

It's a quarter after 3, i'm all lonely and I miss you now.

See what i mean when suddenly all my words rhymes (you'll know later if you continue to read on). that came out like... impromptu.

so, hi to any souls out there who're actually STILL reading my blog, i'm quite amazed. ( i doubt there's any left)

okay so i realised my last post was even BEFORE release of A level result. wow. that's like... SO LONG.
yes, i've got my result... yes it was good, i'm happy.

I had to make a decision.... and I did. I was brainwashed by all the adults around me - -''' so i chose to be an NTU Chem eng student. I hope i made the right decision... i really do T_T

ok so lemme re-rant on what i posted on twitter. oh right.. now i've 1 more place to put my vids up. :D

So... i've been listening to songs (duh, who doesn't?). There are certain songs i really liked.. tried looking for the piano scores.. couldn't find any that I was happy with...

So, i thought, why not i write it myself then?

and i did, i've been doing that since..... Feb 18th (i went to youtube to check it). cool.

The procedure goes like....
I listen
I write the melody line
I google for the chords online/transpose the chords online/ figure out my own chords
I play
I record
I get pissed off.... (cos of wrong notes)
then I upload.

After a while.. my dad suggests.... i should start composing. and i told him.

I have no inspiration. :(

then he said, it's okay, it takes time.... it indeed took quite sometime...

it's been at least a month since he told me that. i've been trying to write sentence with rhyming words....

But i could never do it.

but now... YOU are my inspiration. whether you know it or not. i don't think you know, but i also think you'll know soon. I'm not exactly very close about it hahaha, as usual huh.

so.... Thanks to you, on saturday (like 4th june)... after i finished teaching my last student... i suddenly had all these sentences with words that rhymes in my head.

so i went to the office, looked for rough paper... and started writing down whatever i could.

I've no idea if this crush's gna work out. i've known that you exist for almost 3 months (tts damn short)... but it was a VERY SHORT period of time (even shorter than 3 months)... that transformed you from just someone i find really nice.... to a MAJOR crush.

TBH, this is my 2nd time experience this kinda feeling... the 1st wasn't a very nice one either hohoo. :(

(but obviously u're nt my 2nd crush. if u were to count all you're probably my 134739605th crush or sth)

Idk if i even stand a chance... but at where i am now. i am NOT going to just let you go.

but for now i'm not gonna do anything...yet. I've been heartbroken for the past 19 years cos all my crush are scared of me TT_TT i DO NOT want the same to happen to you.

ok. it's half past 3 and i'm actually quite sleepy, so if you'd excuse me.... see you in my dreams ;)

2011-02-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

i realised i still have readers HAHAHA. so ok i shall blog.
counting down to the start of the exam, or counting down to the result day is worse?
i'd say counting down to results day.

i'm more or less prepared to cry that day, but i'm still wishing and hoping to see at least, the triple As that i want.

if i don't get it i'l just cry my eyeballs out,
but who is there to blame, when it was my own fault that i blanked out?
so hello there juniors, getting s BBB for the 3 H2 subs at prelims doesnt guarantee anything at all...
not when you just blanked out on the day of your paper,
not once, but twice. each time, at a different subject.

and what is worse, is that these are the 2 subjects that are my favourite,
disappointing myself is one thing...

but disappointing my teachers is another... and i don't want to...
not when i bugged them so much during the time in jc...

ugh, so it's next friday. screw it.

and btw, i've declared myself hating work, office work basically.
how could anyone sit at the damn desk for 8 hrs doing the same damn thing over and over again?
me for one, would die from that. - -'''

screw it.

2011-01-25T14:22:00.000+08:00

i finally found my childhood sweetyheart...

but he's attached :(

oh well if he's mine he will be mine eventually,
so for now, i'll just play around.. hehe.

2011-01-11T03:01:00.000+08:00

idk who's still reading this blog but anw... i've got to rant,
i need to rant!

hahaha. i've been asked out, for the 1st time in my life. but hmmp. i said no. ><
he's probably one of the most perfect guy anyone could've ever asked for.. but idk why, i don't think i'll be myself around him.
plus i had no time,
i'm sorry ><

ok let's talk about the not-so-perfect guy for others.
but sorry idk why at the current state, you're my no.1.
but i know, i'll never be ur number 1.

but then again, with ur player attitude... i've been ur friend since i knew you till now.
idk if you've told other girls about ur crushes, or what...
but i'm pretty sure i'm one of those girl u're letting me know ur life.

i know you used to insert that "sis" word when you talked to me when u're telling me that that's all i am to you...
but apparently, that word has miraculously disappeared.

you're the only guy i've talked to on phone other than my dad, for at least half a year (except asking for work)

u shd be honoured ;)
and i've quite a lot of ur pics , and they're all sent/given to me by you.
idk how many girls you've given them to.
but...
i dont care ;)

listening to club friday now makes me feel like.. i should've went out with the 1st dude HAHA. but no, im not regretting anything. :D

2010-12-22T00:16:00.001+08:00

I LOVE FABIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-12T22:45:00.000+08:00

Song: One day, I'll be good enough (Ost. First Love)
Artiste: Bodyslam

I want to be good enough, so that you'll be confident of me.

But all I am, is an ordinary person

The fact is that you're unsure still, actually,

unsure about pouring your love wholeheartedly.

You're worried that you'll find someone better, who would love you just as i do.

Then I'm begging you right now, hoping that....

You won't fall for anyone,

that you won't confess your love for anyone.

Can you wait for me?

for some day I'll be good enough.

Just give me some time,

I promise it wouldn't take too long.

You're the nice one, the one everyone wants.

You're the only one, everyone is dreaming about.

But I don't care, i'm serious about you, and i will try my very best,

all out that my heart can do.

I will do everything to be as good as I think I can be,

because i want to be with you.

So all i'm begging you right now, hoping that...

You won't fall for anyone,

that you won't confess your love for anyone.

Can you wait for me?

for some day I'll be good enough.

Just give me some time,

will you?

I just want us, to love each other.

I can do it, I must do it, some day

Just don't fall for anyone else yet, please wait for me.

I insist, i confirm, i want us to be together.

So really, i'm really begging you...

So just wait for me, will you?

2010-12-08T15:11:00.000+08:00

saw doreen blog, maybe i should blog too! :DDDD

and so prom was yesterday. wow, after 10 yrs of not wearing dress/make up.. i'd say i'm quite amazed HEHEE.

ytd probably was the 1st day i get so much compliment... but i think i look better n would have more confidence... without the make up :(

and i swear all the compliment can go to my dress.. cos that was what was really really nice... so thank you to the 3 of you who helped me find my dress!!! :D

waaaa ytd really epic. never rushed so much before in my life.
the worst thing? I COULDN'T FIND MY WALLET AND THE TICKETS WERE INSIDE,
NOT 1, BUT 2.

and what's worse was to find out i actually didnt need the ticket - -'''
oh well i'm so sorry to yt, to wait for sooo long. :(

he's actually quite gentleman hahaha. he took the forfeit cos he was the only guy, awwwwww...

(all else shall be down in my diary, not here :P)

the games were funny, the emcee was even funnier. ohmygod...

and there were just so so so so so much phototakings... hell i hate flash. i look like ghost - -'''
maybe it was a good thing i didnt get polaroid, i would've looked like ghost - -

i'm too lazy to blogggggg

i watched First Love again last night, and cried again. even if it's not that much cos i was watching with dor/xh and mel. but HOW TO NOT CRY?!?!!?? :'(

watch alone best, cry my eyes out also noone care haha. i cried tilll i had no more tear the 1st time (which was the night b4 prom) i watched it.

i think i needa find a way to become fairer LOL.

'funny how this book can tell how much you've tried,
but i want to tell you,
you've already suceeded when you started'

oh my god...
and the rose :'(

ok sorry unless u watch then u'll get what i mean.

k i shall go and indulge myself in my book.

i still wanna hear that word from you, even if prom's over and i'm no longer beautiful... ;)

2010-12-06T12:47:00.001+08:00

my luck is playing some trick on me. haha. :'(

2010-12-04T12:04:00.002+08:00

A'S OVER! HAHA
i wna watch hello stranger!!!!!!!!
oh. and.
hmmp.
ugh.
nvm.
hmm...

AIYA. SIAN. OK I SHALL KEEP IT IN ME TILL I'M SURE. BYE.

2010-11-19T19:15:00.000+08:00

no, he didn't get gold...

nvm, good enough. 3 golds, 2 silvers, 2 bronze..

it was 3 golds, 1 silvers, 3 bronzes...

well, the MVP should be him again.

swimming ended yesterday, to me, asian games has ended. and now, it's another round of 2 years of waiting...

that loss is far more emotional for me, than the fact that econs is out of my life...

yes, i completed my econs paper today. it was the best paper i've ever taken, and i hope it's the best i've ever done...

let me pass, please...

and i'm really in a depressed mood right now... while i'm typing this, i'm tearing

for what reason, i'm only left to guess.
you may say i'm obsessed,
i'm crazy,
whatever man...
you probably won't know how much it means, until you've found your own idol.
found someone to look up to,
to be supporting him/her all the time.

ok i'm typing nonsense, noone'll read this anyway. byebye.

2010-11-18T18:35:00.002+08:00

OH YEA, ANOTHER GOLD IN 100M! :DDDD
that, to me, is unexpected. so was it to him, but whatever, I AM HAPPY!!!!

:DDDD

1500m, i rly rly rly rly rly rly rly hope he can get it!!!! :D

ye shiwen is damn cute. she's 14. 14, i was busy trying to get into 3e1. HELP.

2010-11-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

LALALALALAAAAA

ANOTHER GOLD!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D

I WANT AT LEAST 1 MORE, OK? THE OTHER ONE SILVER, I'M HAPPY!

N GET ALL THE BRONZE FRM RELAYYY!!! :D :D :D :D :D

LOVE YOU TAEHWAN!!!!

AND JIANBIN QUALIFIED TODAY, I SAW HIM, I SAW HIM OMG MELTSSSSSS.
BUT HE NVR TAKE OUT HIS GOGGLES. siannnnn.

2010-11-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

1ST ASIAN RECORD 1ST ASIAN RECORD IN SWIMMING!!!!!!!

I KNEW HE COULD GET A GOLD,

I KNEW THE RECORD IS HIS,

BUT HELL,

HE ACTUALLY BROKE HIS RECORD!!!!!!!!

I LOVE PARK TAE HWAN HAHAHAHA.

even though straight after he got the flower, he rannnnnnnn and throw the flower up to a girl :(

nvm..

I LOVE YOU!! :D

1min44.80s!!!!! ^^

2010-11-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

WOOOOHOOOOOOOO.

NVM HOW BADLY I SCREWED CHEM PAPER 3
AND BIO PAPER 2
AND GP
AND MATHS PAPER 1 (I HOPE THE LIST ENDS HERE)

BUT HELL, I'M DOWN WITH 6/11 PAPERS I HAVE!!! AND MY REMAINING 5 PAPERS ARE SPREAD OVER 3 WEEKS WOOOHOOO!!!!

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY,
ASIAN GAMES STARTS TONIGHT!!!! OMGOGMOMGOMOGMOGMOMGOGMGOMG I CAN FINALLY SEE TAEHWAN!!!!!!
AND OF COS JIANBIN OMGGGGGGGG

I AM SERIOUSLY GOING MADLY HAPPYYYYY ALALLALALLAA.

BYEEEE :D :D :D :D :D :D :D ::D :D:D

2010-11-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

those 2 hours to you might have been just for fun,
but for me it felt like a dream come true.
and so this song, i dedicate it to you,
cos it kinda describe how i feel.

no i'm not gna give up so easily,
but i'm not gna do anything yet either.
wait till i'm done with A's, then i'll start,
if till then, i'm not over you. (even if im not that serious, but you're the exact type of guy i like)

Song name: Beyond me.

Artiste: M The star

It's not as though i didn't know I'd be hurt,

But i can't suppress the feeling in my heart.

It's not as though I'm as good as anyone else,

nor am I someone whom you'd even glance at.

But I can't help, but think of you,

even though i know you're like the star that's only compatible with the sky.

how would someone so ordinary, like me,

ever be able to lay my hands on you?

(*)

Even if my heart were to shatter the very first moment i set my eyes on you,

I'm still gonna try.

I know, the higher i climb, the higher chance there is that i will fall,

but even if i die from that falling... Bring it on.

(**)

I know i'm doing what's beyond me,

I know i may seem shameless, to dare to love you.

I know I'll be hurt,

But i'm more than prepared for the sadness this heartbreak will bring.

(***)

Even if I can't stretch out my hand enough to reach the star,

but i only have one life to live, so why not?

Even if i were to die,

I'd die loving you.

All i want, is to be near you,

to meet my star in the last chapter.

All i can do is to look at you,

Hoping, every single moment, that you'd turn back and look at me.

(*,**,***,**,***)

Even if i were to die,

I'd die loving you.

and i mean it

2010-10-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

MY EVERYTHING KENA ATTACK BY VIRUS. MY EMAIL MY BLOG MY COMP UGHHHHH

ok, anything, BUT NOT ME. I CAN ONLY FALL SICK AFTER 7DEC. (nope not 2nd dec) I SWEAR IM GNA MAKE SOME PPL'S JAW DROP! >)

oh. i graduated from tj, lol.
btw, what am i doing here?

2010-10-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'd rather have AAA/U than ABA/B or even ABA/A.

2010-10-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

sorry luh but i cant stand it. :(.

i've no idea why,
but i guess it's cos you're probably my 1st... idk what
but really, i've never felt that way with anyone before.

ok i know i'm supposed to be over you,
but really,
i can't help but have this sharp pain, whenever i see you.

i used to be someone you know, someone you acknowledge.

apparently, we're eve worse than strangers now...

you know i really don't want it to just end like this,
i don't want to leave this school, as a stranger to you.
but really, what can i do? :(

2010-10-04T20:23:00.000+08:00

hello, to both of you.
well maybe three of you...

FINE, maybe everyone who reads this, but to the 3 of you especially...

Exams are out to kill us, yes i agree. cos it totally killed me.
but don't worry,
cos you're not facing it alone.

be it promotional exam, A level, or year end exam,
i just want you to know that if you ever need someone to rant on about how you made stupid mistakes,
or how stressed up you are,

i'm here for you.

all you have to do is just to sms me, call me,
or just drop me an email...

you know i never don't reply you... i just don't want to be the one initiating,
cos i dono if you're annoyed with me...

take care...

2010-10-02T17:53:00.002+08:00

idk if you're kidding, or just teasing me...

but i'm definitely happy, very happy.

^^

2010-10-01T22:33:00.001+08:00

maybe i should just give up on econs. fml.

2010-09-29T20:00:00.000+08:00

i just realised...

i scored like 240+ for my PSLE prelims, but i only got 217 in the real PSLE.

My o level prelims i had straight 5A1s, which were my target, but in the real O's, i only had 2 A1 and 4 other A2s.

So, those times, i scored up to expectations in the prelims, but below expectations for the real final exam.

for once, for once i'm hoping to reverse this trend.
i'm not performing up to expectations right now, for my prelims. way off, i should say.
so i'm hoping, that just this time, i would be able to get what i want.

I''m only asking for 3As, and Maybe 2Cs? if not, just 3As, and 2 passes.
That's all i'm asking for, is it really impossible?

no, i don't think so.
i'm gonna give it my best, (what am i doing here), my all.

I don wanna regret anything.

2010-09-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

HELLOO!!! \^^/ I GUESS YOU'LL NEVER SEE THIS UNLESS YOU GOOGLE YOURSELF, BUT ANYWAY,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, PARK TAE HWAN/ 박태환 !!!!

I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOUR SWIMMING CAREER, PERSONAL LIFE AND EVERYTHING.

I PROMISE I'LL CONTINUE TO SUPPORT YOU, it doesn't matter if i'm supporting Jianbin as well, cos the sole reason i noticed Jianbin was because YOU WEREN'T HERE FOR YOG!

(thanks anw if not i wouldn't have known Jianbin existed)

BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER, COS FROM MY GUESS, YOU TWO WOULD BE TAKING DIFFERENT EVENTS! so i wont have to choose who to support, except well... in relays.

I REALLY HOPE THAT I WOULD BE ABLE TO SEE YOU SWIM LIVE ONE DAY :( :( :( :(. and now my only hope is London 2012, the world is not allowed to end until i've seen you, OK? :D

all the best for asian games, even if i'm having A's, I WILL STILL BE WATCHING, I-DON'T-CARE!

breaks some more records, and grab those golds for korea OKAY! :D

haha when i was 14 i wondered, 4 years down the road i'd be 18 and taehwan would be 21, if i would still be supporting taehwan.

the answer is out HAHA.

사랑해요, 박태환!

what an important week this is!!! :)

2010-09-26T17:29:00.001+08:00

i hope it gets there. (btw, you're not supposed to see this, it's a surprise for you, dude).

2010-09-26T14:37:00.001+08:00

so there ARE people reading my blog,

BUT WHY ARE VIRUSES THE ONLY PEOPLE TAGGING!!! >(((((

*sians*

2010-09-24T20:20:00.001+08:00

prelims' over,

but i don't feel like it is..

2010-09-19T17:51:00.001+08:00

fml i wasted my weekend away. yayyyy.

so there's no one else to blame if i flunk maths.

well wait, there is. blame maths. screw you zzz

2010-09-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

cool nice song in this kinda time. for every single one struggling with something in their life (Y)
the song is kinda like... someone who was so tired, he wanted to just commit suicide. but then that moment changed his life. :)

come on, WE CAN DO IT! :)

Title: Higher

Artiste: Aof Pongsak

He has no control over the path he's on, drawn by fate,

even if the paths always lead him to failure, to dead-ends.

He's so tired, he wants to just stop and give up.

To give up everything, and end everything by dropping himself off this higher place.

(*)

He was me, who felt like doing that when I'm devastate, hopeless.

But when i was standing right there, at the higher place, i realised...

(**)

The higher i am, the further i can have the overview sight

and i was able to look at everything, at a bigger angle,

opening up my mind, my heart, that...

(***)

We should be standing higher than our problems,

then only can we see that everything isn't that bad,

that out of thousands of dead ends, there would always be, at least,

one way out.

How many times was he faced with those horrible incident while on the path,

but he has to persevere, he must make sure nothing stops him.

He might not have experience much happiness,

but he would be able to understand his life better, after standing at that higher place...

(*, **, ***, **, ***)

out of that thousands of dead ends, there would always be, at least, one way out.

2010-09-18T20:12:00.001+08:00

wonder who am i to you... :(

2010-09-12T21:18:00.001+08:00

can't wait for prelims to be over!!!!!! this is so damn different from my feeling when i was taking O's prelims. that was like... fun.

but now... it's so :(

i still have no goal, and will continue to not have one. ugh. oh i do. TO WATCH PARK TAE HWAN SWIM LIVE!

now i shd add 1 more, TO WATCH HE JIANBIN SWIM LIVE AGAINNNN! :D
yes.

i've been having a very very very VERY bad moodswing since yesterday. MY PERIOD ARE LIKE SUPER FREAKIN DAMN LATE?!??!?!? hell - - AND I FEEL MORE BLOATED EACH DAY. (gp side track: there's no such thing as more and more/ less and less)

from this point onwards, up to you if you want to read

i've warned you.

hai... u know sometimes i wonder, how many people actually do meant what they say, and keep to what they promised?

all i need is some sense of acknowledgement that i still matter as much as you claimed i was.
see, just one single mistake, and i've lost you.
i've lost someone i knew, and thought, would be my bestfriend.
someone who've clicked with me like noone else does. seems like i was away on dreamland.

and when reality hit me, that nope, im not there anymore, i can't help but feel cheated,
taken for granted.

and most of all,
hurt.

i know lots of people take their friend for granted. i do, with ivy and amanda, and wl/ws/yt.

but i'm quite sure that whenever THEY need me, i'm there. no matter what,
even if i don't even see ivy,
even if amanda's in canada,
even if weilin's busy mugging for A's (or talking nonsense),
even if wei shan is studying like mad for her exams (or going out with some ------),
even if yu tong is gaga-ing over anime (and grounded inside her house),
i'll be there.

jc fren no need la hor i see u all everyday n u noe i don take u for granted.

ok im typing too much i forgot what my point is.

i just want you to know, whatever i said to you, i meant it. E-V-E-R-Y SINGLE WORD of it. and i don't change. even if i do, I'LL TELL YOU I AM CHANGING.

and i take it, that you meant it. idk if things'd changed for you. idk how much of the space i occupy in your heart, idk if the memories you wanted to get rid of was about me.

maybe to you, now i'm just the person to make you sad, to make you think so damn much, right? and she's making you feel better, right?

i'm sure you know how sensitive and how easily affected i am, not to mention how simple stuff can trigger my jealousy, and how i remember things. every single thing that has affected me emotionally, i remember them.

screw the facebook new column that keeps showing photomemories, cos more than half the time, it's a pic of me and you.

ok. my brain has officially stopped functioning and i'm braindead. goodbye.

2010-09-08T19:51:00.001+08:00

i cant help but feel this way.

sound familiar?

2010-09-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

can i rewind the time back... maybe... 7 months ago? i promise i won't be blind, i promise i'd have taken that chance...

:(

11 to 12 study schedule is mad.

2010-09-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

idk what's the right thing to do. to try and drip hint to let you know how i feel, or to just keep quiet and act normal like nothing's changed.

see, if i do try to let you know, things'll prob be different, and from my past experience, it's always different in a bad way :(

but if i keep quiet, you'll never know. and even if you do feel something, i will never know. how?

2010-09-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

omg i love bio hahahaa.

so we had a make up cls today, well it's normal everyone complained and i did as well. but trust me, it's 0.1% compared to if it was to stay back for econs/gp/maths.
really.

ok so we were going through post mortem. and there was a qns about species.
explain the term species in a biological term, or sth.

so the definition has 2 parts, and the 2nd part is about the species must not be able to interbreed with another species.

and her example?

Ms ho: OK OK, so right, you must say that the species cannot interbreed with other species cos that's the main reason why they're seperate species! so like ping, cannot mate with chimpanzee right?

me: HUH, WHY ME.

Ms ho: ok la ok i give you better example, and i hope you will rmbr this example. so let's say... ping mate with jianbin to produce fertile and viable offsprings....

me: YES YES YES >///<

Ms ho: but cannot mate with limeng's grandson... means ping is a human right? so you must write that since ping cannot mate with limeng's grandson, she's a human! well unless, of cos, jianbin is a monkey.

me: NO HE IS NOT! OMG!

omg. HAHAHA. if that ever happens i needa buy wanling and angeline a HOUSE. the island is self proclaimed.

ok. time to sleep. HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :D

2010-08-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

the longest we went without contact is 13 days.

it's only a single digit now. wait ping, wait.

2010-08-29T19:26:00.000+08:00

i feel like changing my blog song, so i shall. i think i've used this song before alr. but nvm...

as to who i dedicate this song to... it's really either you know, or you don't :)

Title: Missing you

Artiste: Golf-Mike

Lyrics:

Have you any idea at all, how lonely I feel without you?

And what is on my mind all the time, is where are you right now?

Is there anyone to talk to you, to take care of you?

I just want you to know, that someone far away, always has you on her mind.

(*)

There're white fluffy clouds and a breeze of wind over a field of flowers,

stretching through to the horizon at where I am right now.

But how good would it be, if you were right here with me.

(**)

I pray to the wind, and hope that it would blow over, bringing all these to you.

Whatever goodness I experience, I want you to experience it too.

Wherever you are right now, I pray that the wind, would blow my heart to you.

To tell you, that someone right here, is missing you all the time.

Who are you with? What are you doing?

Have you ever thought of me, when we're far apart?

How I wish the clock would move faster,

so I can see you sooner.

(*, **, **)

To let you know, that someone right here,

is missing you all the time...

NICE SONG RIGHT!

2010-08-29T09:02:00.003+08:00

dear ping,
STOP
THINKING
ABOUT
IT!

- -''''!!!!

2010-08-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

hai :( byebye jianbin :( :( :( :( :( :( :'(((((

i did what i could do (of cos, not everything cos i stil cant read chinese)...
and i think i won't be that lucky. but everytime i look at the picture, i realised how lucky i am...

not many had the chance, but i guess, now, MANY have the chance.. :(

and hell, i went through a time of curling up in bed and whine, literally. once in a while i'll get up, run to the toilet to vomit/ls. :( life sucks, doesnt it?

now that i have a day MC, im STILL going to school tomorrow... :(
nvm, just go. and hell.. someone help me.
someone tel me how to record tv please :(
:(

and i'm still waiting, surprise like like how u did last night. u hv no idea hw shocked and happy i was.

2010-08-25T19:29:00.000+08:00

seems like... i'm born to screw up every single chance i'm given.

gimme one more chance, treat me how you did before,
i promise i won't take the wrong step again...

:(

a one worded email reply hurts, fyi.

2010-08-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

imma confused girl.
like a pingpong ball, cos i'm round and idk where to roll to.
helpp...

i'm too confused, maybe it's co of resemblance.
or maybe it's not.

ugh. save me.

confusing right.
i am too. very. hai :(

i wna turn back time, back to my intern day where i'm too tired to think about anything. hai....
and maybe i should appreciate how thing were back then. argh.

*confused*

2010-08-21T00:51:00.000+08:00

4 years ago, on 3rd December 2006,
i fell in love with Park Tae Hwan, a 17-year-old Korean swimmmer who won gold, and broke Asian record.
followed by winning another gold medal, in the 400m freestyle event.
and then another gold in the 1,500m freestyle, breaking the asian record, and was the asian guy to have swum under 15 minutes. and guess what, i cried on that very day, cos instead of broadcasting the 1,500m, they broadcasted badminton instead.

and so, i missed his final event.

now, almost 4 years later, on the 15th of August 2010,
i again fell in love with He Jianbin, a 17-year-old Chinese swimmer who won gold in 100m backstroke in YOG.
followed by another gold in the mixed-freestyle relay.
a silver from 4x100m freestyle relay,
and another gold from 4x100m mixed medley relay, and on the very day, i teared. cos i know i wouldn't have the chance to see him ever again,
and that idk how to record the tv.

oh well... the only difference is 4 years,
i was 14 back then, i'm 18 now.
i'm 3 years younger than park tae hwan, and i'm a year older than he jianbin.

both of them do freestyle, just different distance.
park tae hwan is a long distance swimmer, taking usually 200m, 400m and 1500m,
while he jianbin is a sprinter (at the very least, from what i know), who took 50m and 100m freestyle.

and addtion bonus for jianbin, for being a backstroker as well :D

Park Tae hwan's 185cm tall, He Jianbin 186 tall,
Taehwan weighs 74kg, and jianbin, 72kg.

and they WILL meet, in the Asian games. i doubt they'll meet in individual events, unless Taehwan decides to take 100m freestyle again.

other than that, they'll probably meet in the relay. so i won't have to worry about who to support ha ha ha.

hai :(.

well at the very least, the old ping is back, emo-ing over guys (whether or not they are real) and results.

but yea, i should know how lucky i am.

and to everyone, embarrassment only occurs for a period of time,
but the memory that you get, stays forever. that's what i learnt :)

So, i conclude...

♥♥♥♥♥♥

사랑합, 박태환

♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥

我爱你, 何建彬

♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-08-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

ohmygod mass civics was epic. i laugh till my stomach pain, (yes, I ACTUALLY ENJOYED CIVIS TODAY HA HA HA)

there was this ex TJC-ian who came back to give the talk,
initally was quite the usual stuff about stress management. (haha now tt i wna blog abt it i actually went to search abt the test, ANGELINE AND SERENE I'LL TELL U THE RESULTS TMR! :D boring result - -''')

then she got on to personality and how we manage stress according to the personality.

so the 1st was a D, (i cnt rmbr wat it stands for but generally...)
goal orientated, born leader, decisive bla bla bla,
and then the way they relieve stress, is through physical means.

so cos of that, ANGELINE AND SERENE CLAIMS THAT I'M A D. sorry no, i'm not :D

but i conclude, that angeline is the D, and not me.

okay so the next letter was a I, which stands for... idk what i cnt rmbr. lol.
anw,
so the traits were...
outgoing, enthusiastic, compassionate, talkative,
SO WHILE READING THE TRAITS, ANGELINE, SERENE AND I WERE LAUGHING OUR ASS OFF COS APPARENTLY, I COULD FIT IN EVERY SINGLE DESCRIPTION.
i know, i know, im an optimistic person :D

but no, that wasnt the more funny part.
the really funny part came in, when the negative part comes in.

lol.
disorganize, irresponsible, emotional, get angry easily...
yea, and when the speaker speak she went,
"so usually the high I person... on this table's person... is usually more messy than other people"
- angeline and serene laugh and nod.

and then probably, their notes are everywhere
- they nodded

and they may even be borrowing notes from other people!
- THEY NODDED AND THEY WERE LIKE PING OHMYGOD EXACTLY YOU.

and then they laugh at the "get angry easily"
and laugh
and laugh.

and then it was the "how they deal with stress" slide,
so..
i cnt rmbr the exact word but yea, they say,
the high i people tend to become EVEN MORE talkative,
but at the same time, they can be REALLY emotional.

AND THEN THOSE 2 LAUGH AGAIN.
(yea all the while i was laughing but they were laughing at me it's different!)

n then below that,
is the greatest fear....
and for the i...
it's REJECTION.

AND NOW THEY LAUGH THE LOUDEST.

nyeh.- -''' fine fine fine. i know i'm a high I person, u 2 jealous :D cos apparently serene is a CS, and angeline is... idk. IC, ID?! HA HA HA.

2010-08-10T11:52:00.000+08:00

peace (Y).
i'm so peaceful now. i think.
oh well at the very least i'm not like not having peace in my mind.
ok i smel sth burnt i needa go look at the fry-er- -''' i forgot to put my pop chicken in,
okay. waiting for another reply and settle this once and for all.

and i needa study. i spent my last few days.... okay here's wat i did.

thursday: movie!!! :D :D :D my 1st Bangkok Traffic Love Story. and fell in love with it, LIKE DUH.

friday: national day celeb, meeting with weilin/weishan/yu tong for sakae buffet. and lots of catching up and laugh-till-you-cant-breathe convo.

saturday: went to sch for bio, then went home and watch dvd (Y).

sunday: BangkokTraffic Love story for the 2nd time with my family at vivo, walked arnd vivo cos my mama liked it, then went home, went to the beach with dogs. and let them run like mad. then went back home, with sandflies bites as souvenirs. cool much. oh, i did aq. but only halfway cos i got distracted by thai actress's twitter. interesting shit. (Y)

monday: decided to start doing work, so did tutorial 4 in front of the tv. and i finished it at almost 2am at night.

tuesday, which is today, i shal eat, then study respn/photosyn (nt both, i'm choosing one)
then do a chem essay paper.
then maths IN FRONT OF TV :D :D :D so i muz complete 2 1st, then i can watch tv.

ps: the show i'm watching, the lead actor is the one who's the lead actor in Bangkok Traffic Love Story :D :D

2010-08-08T21:22:00.001+08:00

Next station, I WILL SAY I LOVE YOU

"will you be free this Songkran?"

"i make a move first" :)

"for you!"

"HE IS MINE, please"

The girl, who want to be wanted the most.

The guy, who girls want the most.

each time i watch Bangkok Traffic love story, i just miss thailand even more.
how i wish i was back there, no matter how messy the town is or how horribly hot the city is,
it's so much better than wherever i am right now.
and i've concluded, i want a thai husband,
i really do.

well but then by Murphy's law, what can go wrong, will go wrong.
so it seems i wont be able to get a thai husband,
oh wtevr man, i wna go back there and work...

seriously.

i cant imagine staying here for my WHOLE LIFE. where all i can do during long holidays is,
1. go out some mall
2. go beach
3. go sentosa (if got $$$)
4. stay home and cui.

wtSHIT?!

ok ping relax, a few more days, i mean, 92 days.
no, 92 days only to the starting.
fine, 100 plus more days till the end, and a few days after that i shall fly off.
and i shall beg my mum to lemme stay there as long as i want.

i love love love love thailand, and no matter how screwed up my country's political status is,
no matter how dirty it is compared to here,
no matter how low the security is compared to here,

i can confidently say,
that i'm happier there.
at least, judging from how i grew up.

at the very least, i didnt grow up with multiple tuition classes and remedial classes,
nor did i grow up with the stress of promoting...

life...

2010-08-06T13:30:00.002+08:00

test tomorrow, what a joke

and cool, i found another nice article, which apparently it seems as if the author knows me, and is telling me this. (this is definitely at the expense of my RE. die)

Loneliness isn't exactly THAT horribly scary,

it's just a period of time that you should spend with yourself,

after interfering and being involved in others life for quite some time.

If you had fallen down,

you should be more careful when walking,

not totally give up walking.

maybe sometimes, we humans,

have to accept things that we don't understand,

and accept others' decision

even though it may do no good to ourselves,

because we can't choose what's going to happen in our life,

all the time.

Love has a life, just like flower,

and there is no vase existed,

which can keep the beauty of the flowers in it,

everlastingly.

Sadness is not unusual,

but being continuously drowned in sorrow and sadness, is.

while the earth continues to revolve around the sun,

she has to not forget,

to rotate around herself.

similarly, when you love someone,

don't forget to love yourself.

If we can only have one love in our life,

then it is worth crying when everything is over.

but in reality,

we can have more than thousands of love in our whole life.

when you feel like you have noone left,

that's a sign,

to tell you that it's time,

you place some importance in yourself.

we can remember anything,

but when we remember,

sometimes it just cant be forgotten.

all we can do, is try to not think about it,

or think about it, minimally.

no matter how hurtful love is today,

but for once,

you have loved, and was loved by the one you want,

you're lucky enough.

credit: www.dek-d.com

nice right?

2010-08-06T00:15:00.001+08:00

i guess the current song doesn't apply anymore. so for now, i'll put my current fav song.
i was feeling horrible ttm. trust me, the movie Bangkok Traffic Love Story cheered me up.
go and watch, seriously. it's very worth it.

thankfully there're ppl arnd me to help me from :((((((( to :((( to :( and then to :/...
thank you so much. whoever you are, you know it.

and at least i know neon do care about me. i was never wrong when i nicknamed you that. you're usually so unreactive, yet you light up my life.
thank you...

and so, my fav song.
after watchin the show, i've come to terms that i seriously should just wait.
when it's time, the right one would come along.
i'm hoping it's a thai.
idk why, but the word "Rak" (which is love in thai), and the word love, has different effect on me.
i love this song, nevertheless.

Artiste: Instinct
Title: Please send me someone.

Must I feel lonely for an even longer time? How many times must I sigh?
How many more times, must i face disappointment in love, before I'm satisfied?
I have to listen to love song alone, 'cos for me, it has always been one-sided.
I look around, I see noone having such disappointment,
so why, why me?

I keep telling myself, there will be some day,
when there will be someone who will come by.
I keep reminding myself, there will be some day,
but... when?

Please send someone to love me,
'cos it's so cold right now, to be alone.
I want to know how true love feels like,
and true love do exist, don't they?

Please send someone to be my soulmate,
to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely,
to help me understand love, and to be loved,
like others.

It's too lonely, so lonely I cannot stand it.
I tried to stop myself from searching, but I could never.
I really want to know, how it feels, like,

to be in love, and to be loved.

I keep telling myself, there will be some day,
when there will be someone who will come by.
I keep reminding myself, there will be some day,
but... when?

Please send someone to love me,
'cos it's so cold right now, alone.
I want to know how true love feels like,
and true love do exist, don't they?

Please send someone to be my soulmate,
to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely,
to help me understand love, and to be loved,
like others.

Just like others, just once,
Please help me understand love, and to be loved,
like others.

2010-08-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry.
and congratulations, you're the 1st few girls who've made me cry. i never thought tt would be possible (except when amanda left and TGAC close down)

thanks a lot.

2010-08-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

wow cool cool cool cool much the layout damn cool ohmygod new one ohmygod shit. (Y)

2010-08-04T20:54:00.002+08:00

i love bio,
i love my teacher.
just looking at her bimbotic action and sarcastic comment can cheer me up totally. thanks ms ho...

i am COMPLETELY myself around you,
i never felt i had to hide anything, nor do i feel suffocated or restricted.

why isit that you feel that way now?
and what am i supposed to do at this sudden change.
it was okay, at least, i tot it was okay yesterday.
what happened?

i'm sorry if i'm too sticky and made you feel uncomfortable, or irritated,
you have no idea how much it hurts me.
but one thing, i don't believe it totally, i trust you still, even after your obvious avoiding me.
call me stupid, i don't care, cos indeed, i am.

whatever i say now is just gonna make you feel offended. what to do?

2010-08-01T22:48:00.006+08:00

by right i was supposed to finish tutorial 2 and 3
by left,
i only finish tutorial 2, and 3 question of tutorial 3. ha ha ha - -'''
i spend 98% of the time stoning and procrastinating. oh well, whats new, RIGHT?
anw, i found this strip of comic on the same website, as usual.
DAMN CUTE RIGHT? :)
absolutely true.
I WNA WATCH BANGKOK TRAFFIC LOVE STORY :)

2010-07-29T21:11:00.005+08:00

i seriously wna block my blog off some people ohmyghandey - -'''
anyway, new song, which goes out to ALL my friends, i emphasize, ALL my friends,
especially directing it to you. :)
at the very least u don't have to worry i'd turn lesbian, i'm perfectly straight,
but the lyrics are REALLY meaningful :).

Title: The one behind
Artiste: Aof Pongsak (ohmygod i love love love love love his voice :) :) :) )

All you ever have to do is to accept all my sincerity.
There's no need for anything in return.
You don't even have to worry, don't even have to care about me,
I just want you to know that there's someone...

Someone who had, and would always be behind you.
Someone who has eyes, carefully watching you with care.
Someone who feels overwhelmed with joy, to see you happy.
When the whole world came crashing down on you, I just want you to know...

* (Chorus)
That I'll be taking care of you, when you have no-one left.
There's nothing much more that I want,
other than hoping you would think of me sometimes,
and that when you're worried or feeling down,
all you have to know is that I care.
And I want you to know, that with all my heart,
I love you.

If only you would look back just for once,
that one time, would be the happiest moment in my heart.
There's no need for us to be in love,
there's no need for any understanding.
All you have to know is that you still have me...

* (Chorus)
That I'll be taking care of you, when you have noone left.
There's nothing much more that I want,
other than hoping you would think of me sometimes,
and that when you're worried or feeling down,
all you have to know is that I care.
And I want you to know, that with all my heart,
I love you.

I just want to love you... That's all.

2010-07-28T21:38:00.003+08:00

so many things happened over the weekend but heck, it's over now. i hope it is, at least.
anyway...

just hang in there k? u're one strong person, one of the strongest i've ever known. physically, mentally (or not?), emotionally.

you're gonna be fine... i know you will.

i know you're nt in the mood to talk to me, but at the very least i hope you'd see this.
and i hope it'll help you pull through wtevr crap you're going through...

and remember this,

no matter what happens, no matter how things have changed.
i'm quite sure one thing that would remain unchange, is the fact that i'll always be here for you.

i might not physically be there,
but u have to know, somewhere out there in the scary world,
no matter where i'll be,
no matter what i'm doing,
if you need someone, i'm always here.
whether you want it or not.

and i shall annoy the hell outta you if you still gimme no respond, i'd rather see you annoyed with me,
than to see you this sad.

you've been with me when i went through my tough time,
and i will be here with you,
through the tough time in your life.

take care...
and i love you.

come my blog soon, k? i'll be changing my blog song. the meaning sibei nice :D (as usual)

ANYWAY

TODAY GT SOME UNI TALK UH. THEN THE SPEAKER WAS GARETH'S BROTHER. :O.

anw...
WTHECK, VET ONLY HAS 1 INTAKE?! U MEAN IF I WNA DO VET I'VE TO FLOAT AROUND FOR A YEAR,
BEFORE I CAN APPLY?!?!??!?! SAVE ME.

my mama tell me don't wait. ARGH.
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!?!? save me, someone.

ARGHHHH.

2010-07-25T17:04:00.000+08:00

worst type of pain i've ever felt.

2010-07-24T19:47:00.003+08:00

(for those who're here for titans post please skip this, it's the next one)

i'd rather dash across the road and get knocked down by a care,
than to lose a single bit of your chance.

so i think might as well jump off the building,
cos i think i've lost all of it.

i'm sorry,
idk any other word to say other than this,
i'm sorry.
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry :'(
(i typed too many sorries i'm wondering if i even spelt it correctly :'()

I'M SORRY :'( I REALLY AM :'((((

ohmygod how am i supposed to do this
how am i suppose to express my feeling,
i'm very sorry, :'(

fml. :'(
just when i was so damn bloody happy :'(

2010-07-24T16:49:00.002+08:00

SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING BUT SORRY CANT RESIST TEMPTATIONS TO BLOG YO! :D

okay soooo my alarm rang. oh. i dreamt about titans last night - -'''
anw

yea it rang, so i woke up, thinking what day isit
then i realised.
saturday.
*looks at the clock*

oh gosh it's alr 6.55 i wasted 5 mins trying to wake myself up after alarm. so i got up
bathe, set off for school.

so i talked to gloria
about *BUNS*

then talked to alpha titans
and then tried to pull christy's shorts down (seeking revenge)
i swear it was such a wrong decision cos apparently she lifted my shirt up succesfully - -''' ohmyghandey.

and then i sat on her (Y).
and then there was water slashing.
and then.. idk. many more happening moment but nvm.
so the rules were told.
gamma were to go first,
then beta,
then alpha,
and delta.
with a gap of 5 minutes each.

soooooo.....
i cant rmbr who told me to station myself at tanah merah interchange (which i wanted to initially but felt extra (i bet at this pt of time there are people who go YEA U BLOODY EXTRA WA LAO, but sorry i don't really care).

so since someone suggested, so i did.
i went to tm and wait.

the gap btw gamma and beta,
and beta and alpha
were exact 5 minutes.
gamma came in at like 8.51,
then beta at 8.56,
and alpha at 9.01.

GO ALPHA!!!

GO CHRISTY!
GO GLORIA!

anw.
yep then after alpha went off, around 5 minutes? i went to the bus stop. the bus came.
it went passed them, and when the door open i could hear

GO ALPHA!

okay go alpha i'm sorry i couldnt shout from in the bus :(

then... i waited at the sch bus stop
then i ran in with them.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT,
I RAN IN.
anw.

yep so tt was it :)
and after the run it was time for taupok session
and talking session
and raping session
and picture session
ohmygod. - -'''

then it was time for them to rest.
so i decided i wasnt needed at that point of time,
so i was walking around on my own,
looking at the boards and picture.

then went into toilet,
wash my sweat off, and just slack there.

after a while i went back up,
to realise most ppl alr left for somewhere (OH F IT IT'S 5.02 I WAS SUPPOSED TO START STUDYING AT 5)

then i saw my bag and water bottled being carried.
and then water was sprayed into my face.
and so i splash back.

then we walked on the field.
and then i taupok christy again (have to uh if nt no chance alr)

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.

and then we went to lt3, for results.

ZHE KANG GOT MS PULL UPS, AND BREAK RECORD SET 4 YEARS AGO :D :D :D :D

CHRISTY GOT MS SIT UPS! :D :D :D :D

and then...
when it came to ms titans.... we were waiting.... (i had confidence okay i swear i was confident)
so
10th, 9th.... 5th, 4th....

then top 3.
THERE WAS A TIE IN 3RD POSITION. so i was thinking,
that would either means
there're no 2nd position
or there is
so i tot there would be a 2nd position so i waslike
please not now not now... i want to hear her name ltr!!!

but apparently the oac instructor went...

AND MS TITAN 2010 IS........ (at this pt of time i was lke OK I WNA HEAR THAT NAME RIGHT NOW)

CHRISTY LEE FROM ALPHA!!!!

(trust me the lt might just explode)

so when it was house trophy...
it was a debate btw gamma or beta
at that pt of tme i was smsing yuansong replying him after telling him christy gt ms titans.
alpha was quiet
real quiet.

and then...

THE CHAMPION FOR TITANS 2010 GOES TO.....

(continue smsing)

ALPHA!!!!!!!!

*2s of silence*

SCREAMS SHOUT OHMYGODDDDDDDDDDD OHMYGOD ALPHA WON OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OMGOMGOMGOHMGG!!!!!!!!!

(it was like that for the next 5 mins or so, or longer)
i didnt know wat to do
i looked at brenda
she looked at me
we both scream
WE DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHETHER TO HUG OR TO CLAP OR WHAT.
WE JUST SCREAM!

then it was phototaking session AGAIN.
oh well :) they deserve it right? :) :) :)

then....

it was time for lunch
so we went for lunch at justacia

wa my poor legs were hurting. imagine how the titans' were.
ohmyghandey.

and then we ate
and then.. a lot of laughs.

then christy me philip and jianle took mrt back
and then we had more laughs.
...
..
.

OH WELL I ENJOYED TODAY!!!!!!! worth it even if i didnt study a bit. - -''' cos i m starting as soon as i finish this post.

(i know there was more to it but i forgot - -''')

then...
yea i just forget.
anw.

to ZHEKANG: GOODJOB GIRL. ESP FOR THE RUN. EVEN WITH YOUR "DISKNEE" :D i'm so damn proud of you, you flyer! :D
and so proud of myself for knowing you for so damn long! :D :D :D
you should leave long hair, you were so damn pretty today, seriously! AND I WAS SHOUTING YOUR NAME LIKE NOONE'S BUSINESS.

to GLORIA: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUBBING IN EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT FEELING WELL! i'm so sorry if it was because u felt bad that i begged you to join... :( but whatever it is, YOU HELPED ALPHA.
and u got carried by so many guys wa lau - -''' TRAIN HARD AND I KNOW YOU CAN BE THE NEXT MS TITANS! :D

to CHRISTY: ohmyghandey i was supposed to taupok you cos u got ms titans but u ran away, and when you run,
I LOSE.
i'm so damn holy proud of you, i knew you could do it! (i swear i had confidence) and you really did. all the way christy lee, it's time to mug. like, MUG. i know it's sad, but what to do? just pia lor.
so you wont regret when you finish, cos u know u finish it, with your best :)
and u NEVER let me down in any other way, other than the one i told you.
(which i won't blame you now that you have to mug.)
all the way, be an ogl, and i WILL come back. i promise :)

OKAY.
PING
MUGGER MODE ACTIVATED! it's time to MUG MUG MUG ! >(

105days left ping, 105. jiayou.
i CAN and i WILL.

WE CAN, AND WE WILL PULL THROUGH THIS TOGETHER OKAY! :)

5.32, i exceeded by half hour.ohmygod - -'''

2010-07-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

TITANS! :D

i don't regret not joining,
but had i not gone to support, i'd have regretted it like.. idk. hohoho.
and so... it was the individual events today.

squat thrust
christy fell once, but who cares man she persevered :D i nt rly sure the exact number but yea... inhuman.
zhekang fell also... DON EMO ALR OKAY BUFFGIRL. rmbr my reason for crying is more retarded than yours :)

sit ups
WOW, is the word. i helped jiahui pushed her legs down. and u know wat happened before the girls did sit up?
MY BRA GOT UNHOOKED.
SAVE ME. - -!!!

oh yes, i forgot to mention.
there were severall attempt of rape today, including pulling down of shorts, flipping shirt and of cos,

UNHOOKING BRA?!

anw.

suicide run
i marked, 5 out of 6 runs for alpha.
and i was supposed to run back at the last lap.
i died - -''' wtheck
all the runners don need sprint alr 2x my speed.
if they sprint?

20 TIMES THE SPEED.

well done to christy :D (possible ms suicide. wth?!)
and zhekang, take care of ur knees!

sooo final station for girls was pull ups
oh well zhekang may just be called ms pull ups (ohmyghandey)
but alpha cui alr. nvm we did well for the other 3! :D :D :D

and then log throw.
i thought it was just, throwing log as far as possible
apparently not
- -'''

anw....
yep tt was it. a few ppl injured.
:(

someone tell me how to block specific ppl from reading my blog can? - -''' i want it to be open but i can't help wanting to like... block out some ppl - -'''

ALL THE WAY ALPHA TITANS! :D

2010-07-19T20:45:00.002+08:00

yawnssss so... as usual, when i'm bored. i go hunting for nice article.
and indeed, i found one.
two actually, but i'll just write this one first. cos there's someone i really want her to read this.

Bestfriends,
are they the one who knows you best, and are always by your side?
Yep, that maybe true,
but that's only part of it.

Because...your bestfriend,
is the one who would understand your feeling even if you don't say anything.

your bestfriend,
is the one you would think of, when you're upset.

your bestfriend,
is the one you would call, to get tips on how to go about going after tour crush.

your bestfriend,
is the one you can see anytime you want to.

your bestfriend,
is the one who can make you cry, and make you stop crying.

your bestfriend,
is the one who would NEVER leave you when you're in trouble.

your bestfriend,
is the one whom you have no worry about how you'd look around them.

your bestfriend,
is the one whom you can scold, insult or make sarcastic remarks, without having to think.

your bestfriend,
is the one who would, at all extent, tolerate your moodswing.

your bestfriend,
is the one whom you would NOT think of, when you're with your girl/boyfriend.

your bestfriend,
is the most lonely one when you're attached, 'cos you no longer have time for him/her.

your bestfriend,
is the one who'll make you feel most awkward if you fall for them.

and your bestfriend,
is the one who's left to settle their own problem,
when they're secretly in love with you.

Take care of your bestfriend,
because you never know how sad they would be,
when you say you loved someone else,
or how sad and lonely they would be,
when you're in love.

Give time to your bestfriend,
because you never know,
when they will be gone...

cheer up yo. you know you always have me here...
(although i might not be the 1st one you think of - -''', which is actually quite sad... :( )
but wtevr.... let me know if u need help,
or u just wna whine.
cos i'm all ears.

I LOVE YOU ^^

2010-07-18T17:28:00.002+08:00

idk why, but google chrome definitely has something against me - -!!!!

anyway...
the new timetable sucks much. seriously.
and ooo yay to all j2 students, now we all would have an average of 5 tests per week *claps*
:D

i'm happy actually, at least now i have something to do.
the problem? I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHERE ON EARTH I SHOULD START FROM.

you see, we're gonna have a chem test on inorg chapters. (excluding periodic table)
and then, we're gonna have a mock A level paper 2 (i.e. it's the whole syllabus)

so i should just study the whole syllabus?ARGHHHH.

n then there's bio RE,
and bio SPA.

and maths.

and...

CRAP I FORGOT NTU CONCEPT TEST. mama.
k enough abt those stuff we're gna pull through. i think. :)

okay sooo ytd i went out with 2 Tofus (cos they're really fair, and i'm their charcoal cos.. well yea u know why)
went to city hall, ate mos burger.
went to walk arnd tt area cos of some museum fest.
aiya who cares abt those fest, WE TALKED AND SCREAMED SO DAMN MUCH (Y)
and we really really miss french class,
and madame and her sarcasm/cuteness.
HAIIII.
and i miss you tofus :(.

and on friday, i went to support TITANS!
well i should have gone earlier >( damnn. i went there in time to catch them running back.
GO CHRISTY,
GO ALPHA!!!!

ok. so christy came in 3rd for the individual 5k run. (wtf rite?! i'd prob be 3rd from the last, well provided i don't die along the 5k route cos i can barely complete 400m - -)

wooohooo :) :) :).

then it was log event.
well at the 1st station all by-standers had to keep away from the area, so i stayed away and was on the stairs. shouting and screaming GOO ALPHAAAAA!!!!
wa lao so many no count - -''''
i think it was the bicep curl or something along tt line, yep.

then at 2nd station, i gave up and went into the area.
idk wat it's called but it's lifting the log over ur head, arm straightened and put on the other shoulder. i think it's shoulder press.

and then it was half squats.

then sit up (if that's wat it's called).
casper's leg cramped. so i helped him stretch. what a good ogl i am :).
and... :) :) :) ♥ (well if you're close enough that i tell u what went on in my life u'd know why the :) are there :) :) :) ) ♥

and then the final station... ehhh i think it's chest press.

ohmyfgod i swear they're all buffff people! how on earth could anyone gone through that ohmygod.
me for one, cant.

and guess what....

ALPHA IS IN THE LEAD YO! :D :D :D :D :D

good job alpha titans.

and to dino good job ttm u buffdinosaur.
so if u get ms titans i will taupok u.
and by any chance event, u didnt get ms titans,
i'll let you taupo me. k? :)

doubt u'll see this anyway - -''''

and ohmygod i've to get hold of myself and stop thinking too much - -'''
i get jealous too easily i don't like it!!!! >( >( >( >( >(
ARGHHHHHH!!!! >(

and i dreamt i went out with an 11-yr-old kid. cool shit rite.
his mother also went but he wanted to go haunted house then the mama didnt wna go in.
so i went in with him.
ohmygod i don even rmbr how he looks like but i shd stop going for SUCH A YOUNG BOY. i cap my maximum at 3 yrs younger ONLY.

:)

SHITTTTTT PROTECTED TIME LA WA LAOOOOO.
and i hate pe.

2010-07-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

I PASS GP, I FREAKING PASS GP!!!!!!!!!!

i know a lot of u will say,
so?

BUT IT'S MY 1ST TIME,
IT REALLY IS!!!!
(other than the "S" i got in 2009 jct, I'VE BEEN GETTING STRAIGHT U'S!!!!)

so to many of you out there, if from a 0 percentile noob lowest person like me, CAN PASS,

SO CAN YOU!

well even if i deprove in other subject... :(

2010-07-14T20:29:00.002+08:00

I WILL WAIT!!!

I SHALL STOP RUNNING AND SEARCHING!!!

(not literally cos i never start, anyway)

A LEVEL shall be my one and only love from now on.

well, other than my FAMILY and FRIENDS.

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)!

2010-07-11T18:53:00.005+08:00

idk how to describe my feeling.
but i just found this song, which actually totally describe me.
it just feels... like.. idk. weird.
i don even know how to explain my feeling.
but i can break down anytime. and it's not you fault,
it's not her fault either, so don't feel bad.
it's my fault, for being too simple minded. for being such a soft-hearted person,
for being such an emotional girl,
for being so damn bloody sensitive...

screw you ping. i swear...

ok i was deciding which song i should upload as my blog song, i decide. since i should just let go...
i shall use this one...

Artiste: Instinct
Title: Please send me someone.

Must I feel lonely for an even longer time? How many times must I sigh?
How many more times, must i face disappointment in love, before I'm satisfied?
I have to listen to love song alone, 'cos for me, it has always been one-sided.
I look around, I see noone having such disappointment,
so why, why me?

I keep telling myself, there will be some day,
when there will be someone who will come by.
I keep reminding myself, there will be some day,
but... when?

Please send someone to love me,
'cos it's so cold right now, to be alone.
I want to know how true love feels like,
and true love do exist, don't they?

Please send someone to be my soulmate,
to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely,
to help me understand love, and to be loved,
like others.

It's too lonely, so lonely I cannot stand it.
I tried to stop myself from searching, but I could never.
I really want to know, how it feels, like,

2010-07-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

wtf, i wna slap myself. i really do.

wtf :'(

WTF :'(

wtf i wna die. seriously screw this.

and if it's mutual just go ahead,

so what if i like him, he doesnt like me.

tt's it.

i don't want him to hate me,

just because i'm holding you back from going ahead.

wtf.

i should just.. idk. wtf. i wna say i wna give up.

apparently i fall easy,

and i fall HARD.

wtf. wtf.

2010-07-09T20:11:00.004+08:00

to you, i shall name you A.

that's it. that was my final hope. if there's nothing, i've pinky-promised dino, promise angeline/serene/wanling/lijing, that i will delete you off my phone, and my memory.

(not that i have that much... but it's worth a lot. really a lot. i wonder why too)

and then, when anyone ask me,

"do you still like ____?", i can go NO.

straight no.

i'm sorry but i really never felt anything like this to anyone before, i'm really sorry.

i'm sorry if i'm one of the mishap in your life...

i promise, you'll have none of that left.

somehow, i'm hoping that there'd be nothing. i want a clean stop from you, i really do.

and i think, i've come the correct way.

to you (not just 1 but a whole bunch)

i don care how many Us you're gna get, but i only have you all. so please don't worry about it too much. you still have time, you really do.

and i'm sure, i'm smarter than none of you,

so if i can do it. so can you.

we CAN and we WILL, okay? :)

and to you,

can it really change THIS much over a night?

2010-07-09T19:57:00.002+08:00

i wanna die - -'''

2010-07-08T20:31:00.001+08:00

:( :( :( :( :( :(

2010-07-07T22:48:00.001+08:00

you, you, you, you, you and you, stop making me sad.

cos seeing all of you sad,

makes me feel like crying. :'(

and i hate you for making me sad :'(

2010-07-06T17:10:00.003+08:00

hehehe. free koi bbt \^^/ (okay fine even if it's nt entirely free, it's subsidized :D ) thank you! ^^.

next time if i open my own bbt shop i treat all the 16 of you ok? - -'''

imma happy girl :D

okay enough about happiness lemme talk abt sadness now :(

I DISAPPOINT MY CHEM TUTOR :'(

i have a "disspointing :( " ON MY CHEM PAPER COVER PAGE. u know how much tt hurts? :'( i hate to disappoint teacher, cos disappointing them means they actually have high hope for me, and they know i can do it....

but i just didn't...

:'(

imma sad girl now :(

so was my bio teacher :'(((

(although i made her laugh till she wna die but still...)

CORN BORER IS A FREAKING PEST, NOT THE PERSON WHO GROW CORN, PING GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD! >(

im sorry ms. ho :( :( :( :( :(

and now each time i hear my jnrs tell me they screwed something up,

i feel like crying.

i like this set of exco members, and i don't wat it changed :'(

and i cn feel their disappointment. idk wat's wrong with the school making the papers so damn hard, and making them suffer.

at this rate, the only CCA that would be on going is probaby science council.

and please,

sometimes making the paper too hard

= we have to think a lot

= when the real qns comes out and it's straight forward, we think too hard

= wrong

= screwed

= no A.

= you'll blame us for not performing for school

= papers would be made even HARDER for the next batch...

and the cycle repeats....

thanks a lot. i know you all meant well, but it can backfire.

it really can.

a lot of students spend their time thinking why the question so straight forward, that when it comes to a hard qns, they have no time left.

oh well..think about it man.

(if i get hurt this time, idk who to blame. isit me for being too soft hearted,

or isit you, who made me feel special?)

2010-07-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

somehow, it's just always me, yea? i'm juz unlucky enough.

thanks a lot.

wonder what wrong did i do.

nvm, looking forward to tomorrow...

n i cant believe i'm looking forward to tuesday. not for the class definitely,

i'm waiting for AFTER school :) :) :)! :D

oh well... :(

im so sian now :'( n it's 12 now :( happy new day :( :( :(

1 more day to school. ARGHHHH hate it. >(((((( HELP.

im definitely down for 3 subjects remedials. ARGH. screw you GP econs maths - -''

idk which one i hate more, school or lizards. - -'''' (yes im becoming very random cos im BORED).

and i shd be sleeping, rly.

so i shall translate 1 note... n make more ppl cry :)

AND NADAL WON!!! :D :D :D :D

2010-07-02T12:15:00.003+08:00

Title: Don't have to be anyone.

When I want to love, love someone,

reasons are less important than the feeling in my heart.

It wouldn't be too much, if I say, I love,

just because i want to.

And no matter how others see it,

I don't really care.

All I know is that I love you, love you with all my heart.

I don't know where, I don't know how, but it just has to be you.

There's nowhere about you that I don't love, I love you that you are you,

it's not just a temporary infatuation,

because the only person I'd ever love, is you.

(*chorus)

I won't ask for you to be like anyone, 'cos they are not you.

But can I please ask you to be you, just you, only you.

I don't know how tomorrow would be, good or bad.

But whatever it is, I'll never regret that I love you

When they say someone is beautiful, what are they judging on?

When they say someone is perfect, where are they looking at?

But what I know and I'm very sure of, I look at your heart,

'cos no matter which view I look at it,

all I'd ever see... is pure beauty...

(*chorus)

I don't ask for you to be like anyone, 'cos they are not you.

But can I please ask you to be you, just you, only you.

I don't know how tomorrow would be, good or bad.

But whatever it is, I'll never regret that I love you (X2)

Whatever is going to happy, I'll never feel sorry,

That I love you...

ps: i shall wait for the day, someone sings this to me.

2010-07-02T11:51:00.001+08:00

if only i had 1% of the dream,

i don't need you to start talking to me,

all i want,

is for you to stop ignoring me.

2010-07-01T18:45:00.001+08:00

end of jct.

seriously, goodbye my A for chem :'(

hai...

all organic GONE. all i could do was to draw the structure of the compound in the qns. how amazing.

and when i saw pyruvic acid i was trying to figure out how many Cs does pyruvate have, and realised it's 3. and it fits the question. so, i conclude no CO2 lost.

but i didnt writ ett down.

i'd be so much happier if the qns went "describe the fate of pyruvate in sufficient supply of oxygen"

WA LAOOOO. :'(

hai. idk why i get so jealous sooo damn easily :( i guess it's just me who can feel insecure all the time :'(

i need a crush. seriously.

2010-06-29T20:02:00.003+08:00

fell asleep doing GP paper 2

fell asleep while doing Bio mcq. didnt know that that thingy was a GPCR. read qns wrongly.

wrote a bit, and stared at the clock waiting for time to pass for econs.

i think it'll be another bad case tomorrow...

and guess wat? i lost my ez link card. *claps*

i need a celebration...

i don't care if tomorrow's paper's gonna be like that, but thursday paper better be the best paper for my jct.

if i get an A for chem... idk what i should do. thank my friend for the notes? yea probably... and maybe treat him bbt - -'''

hai :(

if i can't be your no.1 bestfriend... can i be your no. 2? :'(

2010-06-27T20:13:00.001+08:00

i'm so tired.

:'(

2010-06-25T23:37:00.003+08:00

January/ Your heart as strong as rock

Your heart is as strong, and as firm as a rock. You're not swayed by wind, sun or rain. You have high patience in waiting for your special someone, and you tend to fall in love for a very long time even though it's 1-sided. So, obstacles are not a threat to you.

February/ Your heart, a spring.

It's as though your heart has a special type of spring, and is ready to jump from 1 person to another. So, sometimes you're the topic of the gossip in this area. (well, what to do. You're attractive). You're fast, even in the area of love. You fall easily, and you pick up easily. Well obviously, you will not stay with those retard problematic lovers and you will never withstand any relationships with problems!

March/ You like your lover to be like a kitten

You're specialized in the area of selection for lover. One look, and you can how good this person would be your lover. But the bad point about you, is when you are in love with someone, you want them to be like kittens. They have to be tamed and agree with you without any conditions. So, your level of ability to go against obstacles would vary with how "tamed" your lover is.

April/ The always confused and sensitive one. (TOTALLY ME HAHHAA) (i'm gonna make note abt this hehee)

You're known for your sensitivity and how confused you are in love (totally right). Especially, when your loved ones are not paying enough attention to you as much as you want, or ask for(yes so please don't ignore my sms cos i get really really sad :( ). You'll get very emotional and unimportant (yes :'( and i'll worry about a thousand and 1 things), and keep it in you. So, depression and loneliness are what you constantly face. Thus, the level of your tolerance to relationship problem depends on your mood and temper at that point of time, because nothing is constant, when you're considered.

May/ The one who gives everything to true love.

Once you're in love with someone, you've completely surrendered your heart and soul.You never hesitate to display your love for the loved ones, and when your lover showers and shows you their love, you will be completely touched, and fall even harder for them. However, you may still be unable to differentiate between love and sympathy, love and lust, and love from the brain and love from the heart. So, you are always facing with problems.

June/ Please be careful, insanity increases when in love.

When you meet your love, everything is beautiful, colourful, so you only have 1 point of view on love. And you may come across as insane when you're in love. So, when a problem occur, it's hard to control, cos you will be the first to lost control!

July/ All your luck are tied to love.

You're another one specialized in love. Everyone can talk to you about their problem, and almost everyone will find a brilliant way back to solve their problem. You know how to choose your own lover, and you're special such that all your luck are tied to love. So when your love life is not going very well... the others won't be going very well either.

August/ The experienced one

You don't have to be afraid of staying single in your whole life, because your fate as determined that you have to go through AT LEAST 3 times of love, then only would you be able to invite people for your wedding. So, you're very experience compared to the others. Your level of tolerance for problems is generally quite high.

September/Emotional > Reasons

The only way you would choose your lover, is whether or not they attract you or not. Other reasons are all forgotten. Your lover/crush are usually very sensitive and caring. And on the other hand, you cannot withstand people who are possessive and those with high ego. Oh, chances of you marrying early is high!

October/ There's equality in gender

Love, for you is gender equality in both males and females. Don't ever expect you to follow your lover alone, or respect their decision. The type of love that is the biggest obstacle to you is the type that lack justice and equality. You can never accept it if you're at a disadvantage.

November/ Needs the lover to be a confidant

You longed for love, and your lover is very important to your emotional state. They have to be warm, and you can always rely on. But your emotional aren't very stable. Your main problem is that you're the one causing the trouble, and don't really bother to settle it. 'Cos you're kinda "seeking attention type"

December/ Dangerous charm.

Your charm so strong they attract both the opposite gender, and the same gender (oh... how interesting), who are attracted to your personality. Now that you know it, you can proudly accept it, that just by being yourself as you are, is like a perfume that everyone is willing to surrender to you if they're near you. A small little advice for you, please don't fall for someone just because the others say so. You have to be the one finding, and choosing, and reassure, you will be able to go through any problem that came your way!

So how? is yours as accurate as mine? i think this one was mainly for girls ba :D

2010-06-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

Have you found your soulmate?

soul mate, may not be just lovers

but they can also be friends, or even complete strangers.

there are 3 characteristic of a soul mate.

in the past lives, you have encountered or even lived with them.

on that very first time that you meet in this life,

you would find that you're very familiar with this person,

and there's some form of connection between the two of you,

that would make you feel the most comfortable,

and give your complete trust this person.

once a conflict or quarrel arises,

they are usually easily solved and understood.

And, as mention, soulmates may not be lovers.

There're 3 types of soulmates.

1. Companion Soul Mates

this person can be a friend,

a teacher, a boss,

or a complete stranger who saves you in time of trouble,

or someone you have only met for only once, or a few times,

for a short while,

but they may be the motivation for you to change,

in a positive way.

it's only a short period of time,

because in the past life,

you have only met them,

helped them, or received help from them,

over a limited period of time.

it's the kind of,

"i will be like you! i can do it, just like you!"

motivation.

Twin Soul Mates

A twin soul mate, is someone who has been your friend,

for many past lives.

and when you meet them again,

you became friends with them, yet again.

they are similar to companion soul mate,

but the degree of comfortness, closeness,

and the bond,

is much stronger than that of companion soul mates.

it is such that it seems,

like there is a telepathy between the two of you,

like a pair of twin,

that when you get to know each other,

you'll always tell each other what you're going on in lives,

you'll go through thick and thin together.

And no matter where you are on earth,

you'll know how the other person feel,

you'll know that they'd be the one who comfort you when you make mistake,

you'll know that they'll always be there to wipe your tears when you need.

A real life-long friend, so to say.

A Twin Flame Soul Mate

there's 1 and only 1 twin flame soul mate,

hard to find,

hard to meet.

you'd only meet, because of what you did with them in your past lives,

that creates an invisible bond and attraction between you and them.

usually, are opposite gender.

throughout the whole life,

there'd only be one.

the one you've spent your past lives with,

the one, who is like your heart and soul.

when first met,

you'll feel electrocuted,

as though there is magic.

you'd naturally click, could naturally get along well

and feels good when you're near this person.

you would know, deep down in you heart,

that this is YOUR SOULMATE.

it's a feeling you would only have,

for this ONE person.

It would be someone,

whom when you hears the name,

met them,

or know anything about them,

you'll have a different feeling.

you'll feel that they're different from anyone else,

that you've ever known.

Ps:

Soulmates may not be your past lives lovers,

you just have to love the people around you,

you'd find your soulmte in this life.

it's your decision of how you'd form the bonds.

So,

Have you found your soul mates yet?

Good luck!

2010-06-22T11:56:00.004+08:00

more nice passage :) sorry if u've seen this before!

girl: have you ever miss me?

boy: never

g: do you like me?

b: no.

g: do you want me?

b: no.

g: would you cry, if i'm no longer here?

b: no.

g: would you live for me?

b: no.

g: can you do something for me?

b: no.

g: which one would you choose, your life, or my life?

b: my life.

after hearing all the answers, she was devastated.

she turned around and ran away from this person, who was her boyfriend.

but he ran after her, shouting...

The reason i never missed you, is because you are always on my mind.

The reason why i don't like you, is because i LOVE you.

The reason why i don't want you, is because i NEED you.

The reason why i wouldn't cry if you're no longer here, is because with you gone, i'm as good as a walking zombie, with no more life.

The reason why i wouldn't live for you, is because i would die for you.

The reason why i cannot do something for you, is because i'm willing to do ANYTHING for you.

And the reason why i choose my life, is because you are my life.

2010-06-18T16:18:00.007+08:00

omg i saw this off a thai website (which i spent my whole day here already)

Best friend...

is...

just a normal friend,

who happens to be closer to us,

than the usual friend.

cos there are probably several things

in common between us,

more than other friends.

that's probably why,

we became so close.

maybe, it isn't the attitude,

maybe, it isn't the looks,

maybe, it isn't wealth

maybe, it isn't the intelligence,

that we became close.

but maybe, there's something,

something in this person,

that it HAS TO BE this person,

ONLY.

Sometimes,

we just don't go the place we want to go,

just because this one person,

is not going.

sometimes,

we would just go to the place we don't want to go,

just because this one person,

is going.

Sometimes,

we can just sit, kept quiet, and be depressed in one corner for the whole day,

but as soon as when we see this one person's face,

all the tears we tried to fight back in the whole day,

would flow like a waterfall.

Sometimes,

if this person laughs,

we, can laugh louder than our usual.

Sometimes,

a hundred sympathy and words of kindness from many people,

is not as warm and reassuring,

as this one person's pat on our shoulder,

that means,

"it's okay, i'm here"

just like how this quote says,

"i'm not JUST a friend,

i'm YOUR friend"

because,

best friend is so important.

so important,

that some people can't separate,

and compare a best friend,

with a stead.

and compare,

who is more important,

when there is absolutely no link at all.

when we're in love,

this friend, would become the extra,

in out private world.

our best friends, are probably used to it

that whenever we're in love,

we'll drift further and further away,

from them.

And the next time we'd think of this person?

when we're heart broken.

think about it,

if you were your friend,

how would you feel?

it'd probably be along the line of,

"damn you, once you found your love,

you forget your friend.

when it's me in trouble, you don't do anything

but if it was your love in trouble,

you would literally do anything.

you can only remember my number

after you broke up with your girl right,

bitch?"

come to think of it,

it's actually quite true.

cos when we were in love,

and all that matters was our lover,

and we rarely spend time,

with our best friend.

only once in a million years,

would we get to talk.

but when we're hurt,

depressed,

or felt like the world came crashing down,

at that particular moment,

all we felt like doing,

was to dial the person's number,

waiting and longing for the person to just pick up the phone.

which sometimes,

if that person is already asleep,

we'd tell them to get back to sleep,

not needing to listen to anything.

cos all that matters,

was the fact that the person picked up the phone.

that was enough.

this is probably,

what we call,

a best friend.

someone we can sit with,

without speaking a word,

yet when we walk away,

it felt like we've spoken a million words.

a best friend,

is,

someone who're not in our eyes,

when we're happy.

but is someone,

who would NEVER let us fall,

no matter what,

no matter where,

no matter who,

caused that fall.

i've found my best friend (whom i'm not quite sure if that person's aware of it),

have you found yours?

2010-06-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

i'm amazed at how retarded you are christy lee.

and im even more amazed that within a single afternoon, zhePANGkang and pangsai theresa cam make clarisse go OKKKKKKKKKK and PANG PANG.

and further amazed by how this batch of people was able to uncover the true color of the mad lijing.

and at how small gloria's eyes are.

and elite trng seems fun, though with lots of breast stroke - -!

2010-06-15T22:45:00.003+08:00

adventure of ping and pan.

pan: PING HAHAHAHAHA YOUR SCHOOL REOPENING NEXT WEEK HAHAHAHAAA.

ping: eh. isnt urs opening also?

pan: oh shit YEA.

pan using computer, look-chin (our dog) climb on her.

pan: PING GET OFF ME.

mum: *laughs*

ping (who was engross in watching youtube video) : huh?

pan: nothing

mum: she called the dog ping just now haha.

ping: - -!

wait for more retarded moments, but most of the time we're fighting - -

k wait i have more. what abt my retarded dogs :)

ping lying on the floor playing computer. pan on the sofa playing piano. mama sitting watching tv.

one of the dog went to stare at mum with his big eyes. the other one came and stare at me

mum: yessss? wat do u want why u looking at me?

dog: *stares & waggle his tail*

mum: *looks at the clock* OOOH UR DINNER!

ping: *looks at the dog and laugh at her* HAHAHAHA.

mum: PING GO MAKE DINNER FOR THEM! omg we watch tv n we forgot abt them!

ping: HAHAHHAHAHA WAIT LONG LONG. unless u come here, sit and gimme 2 paws :D

and so i call the dogs over.

ask them to sit.

obviously they didnt

and i didnt giv up. so i continued asking them to sit!

AND THEY STILL DIDNT.

and

WOOF!

ping: fine fine fine. just cos i don wna giv u ur dinner u have to bark at me. okay fine.

so i got up.... and walk to the kitchen, SLOWLY.

WOOF!

fine i know u're walkin faster than me and is ahead of me but hey relax manxxzxzxzx.

after i prepare their food.

OK IF U WANT UR FOOD STAND ON TWO LEGS NOW!

*both dogs stares*

STAND!

the female retarded one stood.

HAHA. so i gave her

but the other smart one stil staring

FINE U WIN! >(

seems like there r ppl reading but i m posting this for myself ONCE AGAIN.

2010-06-12T15:47:00.001+08:00

screw maths, screw gc.

screw my life.

2010-06-11T21:23:00.003+08:00

i'll continue with the camp some other day :)

lemme tell u what happened during today's trng

so morning, nth much. juz loads of nonsensical and wrong shooting from me (ah duhh rite im a swimmer)

then it was "reconstruction", according to christy.

well she meant econs, but yea she typed it wrongly cos she was too excited with her new phones - -

then aft tt was more studying. WHICH I COULDNT DO RECURRENCE. KILL ME.

then training....

hohoho... so i begged mr loh to let me join the massaging session

wa lao he damn mean at 1st didnt allow me to join i wna cry alr - -. but then he good mood and nice today uh. so he actually allowed me to join :))

and the pairs were....

gloria+lijing

zhepangkang+pangsai

gareth+mr loh (where gareth give up and went into the pool after demonstration)

and of cos

christy+me. (duh rite noone is big enough to take christy ha ha ha ha)

then...

scissor paper stone, she lost.

so she had to be the dummy for me to massage hahaaa..

so i apply oil like i wna fry christy

and i swear her leg freaking stiff (and muscular, okay?)

sho funxxzxzxz (Y)

she kept on moaning and groaning (although she claims she's only whining, my ass - -)

and it wasnt juz her

there was still lijing + zhekang's moaning

and when it came to the T-bone massage, the oil turned black when i massage christy. i bet it's her and not me

oo...

p: wa lao ur leg seriously damn tight

c: yea it's very tight

p: *pokes in amazement*

c: YOU'RE POKING ME LIKE POKING THE MUFFIN TO SEE IF IT RISES

p: o.O? muffin muz poke one uh?

and then when it was my turn...

p: SOMEONE PASS ME SOMETHING I NEED TO HOLD ON TO IT. AH DAMN IT CHRISTY LEE DAMN PAIN CN U RELAX OMG DAMN TICKLISH HA HA HA HA

c: ITS SUPPOSED TO MAKE U FEEL PAIN, NOT TICKLISH!!

p: HAHAHAHA OMG DAMN TICKLISH HAHAHA.

c: OMG PING IT'S SUPPOSED TO FEEL PAIN ARE YOU FEELING THE PAIN?

p: YES OMG. SHIT DAMN PAIN. CHRISTYYYY *whines*

c: wait i marinating the chicken.

p: watttt

c: then muz check if the meat is tender *pokes*

and we were amazingly noisy. not my fault, it was rly pain!! >(

and then, it was 1.5k swim :P

which... well...

nvm.

we helped to stroke correct gloria and lijing though (Y)

productive day (my ass - -)

nvm tmr whole day at home gna lock myself in my room and mug :'(

n there was free BUNS for us after training HAHAHAHAAA

gloria very happy (Y)

n then it was the usual walk out of the gate with the dinosaur. :)

and that's it, the end of my 2nd week of holidays.

HELPPPPPP!!!!!

2010-06-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

okay lemme continue (im too lazy to study - -)

so after setting up fire, we cook rice. and we managed to :D

then after tt was the eggs. GAHHH angriness.

it took me more than half an hour to cook the eggs. never this long, i swear.

and then after cooking went to pick up woods for campfire. hmmp... scary...

yep then it was dinner.

shared with christy, as usual, and she dropped like tonnes of food plus a fork, but nvm abt that :D

then it was the sharing.

well for seniors, it was pure impromptu crap, good job though rachel :D

and for juniors.. there were shows omg.

the names... all the crap. HAHA.

penny for a thought? HALLO HALLO, COME BACKKKK. omg

epic

and. ohmama - -! oh, and mm ji mm. LOL.

and then after tt, was sharing session. and guess wat

it started raining - -

so we went into the pavillion. anw... there were PEOPLE who wanted to sacrifice awww so sweet riteexxzxz - - MY ASS.

anw, and the sharing goes on...

and on...

and on....

then after tt our teacher told us to think about a qns, and i was shocked,

dead shocked...

anw... i felt so damn unwanted

everything was about polo, wasnt it?

fine.

then it was time to sleepp :))))

and we were told of our night duty schedule..

n mine was at 1.30, with jasper and... cnt rmbr who.

rachel's was at 11.30 so yea, she was off 1st

in the tent of me, gloria and christy....

wow.

1st was all the crap of changing and putting powder IN THE TENT.

then it was wrong place of sleep.

christy was at the extreme left, gloria extreme right

and me, in the center.

and so...

ping: eh... dino, i juz realised.... im a left sleeper. (turned on my left and face christy)

christy: eh... no kidding, im a right sleeper. (turned on her right to face me)

c: it's a bit awkward now...

p: yes. very awkward

c: and im really a right sleeper

p: and i REALLY am a left sleeper.

c: oh noxxzxzx.

and then... since each tent has a red light stick each...

THEY STARTE TALKING ABT RED LIGHT DISTRICT.

help...

and then, they hugged a polo ball each, and start to fall asleep.

20 mins passed.... i felt 2 punches on my pillow. looked at christy, hoping to see her open her eyes and giggles.

she juz slept.

10mins later, something cold touch my leg.

and i was like

WHICH PART OF THE BODY IS TOUCHING ME NOW.

used my hands, picked the mysterious part of the body up

oh, it's dino's hand.

and she retracted her hands and curled up.

10 mins later, now from my right side.

a leg came over me.

and it was gloria's

HELP.

couldnt sleep, cos needed to pee and noises were so loud + light flashing my eyes (no blaming, but im a very light sleeper)

then it was my turn

went to pee at the beach. LOL.

then went to the pavillion

where jasper started singing korean songs.

anw. let's heck tt

planned to not sleep, but failed. went to sleep at 4.

sound asleep.

woke up again cs of the gush of wind exactly at 5.50

tried to find my torchlight, failed.

n then went to report late for 7 mins.

and so... 70 push ups.

but this year, it was surpisingly easier than last yr's. although it's 30 difference, but still. rly much btr :D

and then morning run, where mr loh asked me to go back to camp site

found karon there, prepared b-fast with her.

then they were back, and then breakfast :D

okay another pause here.

AND DEAR READERS, PLEASE TAG. I FEEL KINDA LONELY NOT KNOWING IF IM UPDATING FOR ANYONE TO READ OR JUZ FOR FUN! >(

2010-06-06T12:27:00.003+08:00

had the june swim camp from thurs to sat... okay shd i juz blog abt the whole camp? yes. >)

SOOOO let's start with the camp prep.

the night before the camp, went to NTUC with christy (aka dinosaur, if u're wondering who this unknown person is) to stock up our food supply (Y) and we actually spent less then $10, AMAZING RITEEE.

then on the thursday...

reached school at 7.10. went to the toilet like super many times cos i was having stomach ache - -. the sai don wna come out uh - -

then we were told to organise our bags and watevr usual routine.. so we did.

then it was time to load the stuff... and wait for the later people. and was told that the camp was cut short from 4days 3 nights, to 3 days 2 nights. - -

loaded, took bus to ferry terminal and then boat to ubin.

juniors went to look for the campsite, while seniors follows.

set up the tent with my tentmate, i.e. christy, gloria and rachel.

there was a christy+ping vs gloria+rachel match of who cn fix the stick in 1st and put it in place properly 1st.

obviously we won :)))

and so, after much whining about how ugly the tent peck were... OUR TENT WAS UP! :D and since we were so pro and was the 1st grp to finish, mr loh asked us to set up his as well. no problem :))))

i mean, we've no prob doing tt, but the tent has sth against us - -

k aft the tent set up, it was lunch.

then it was r&r till 2pm then the task was given. there'd be a senior vs junior cooking

while the juniors had deep discussion abt the cooking comp and got to bond, seniors went to drink/eat coconut and rent bike. LOL.

competition using ONLY natural fire. well... all thanks go to karon and myran, u 2 are amazingly amazing at setting up fire :)))

so the cooking was finally done. hmmp... okay i pause here 1st i needa go giant buy stuff.

2010-05-28T14:38:00.003+08:00

let's see... i just realise this song fit exactly how i feel about training. read on, and u'll get what i mean...

Title: Never knew i needed (the title say it all already)

artist: Ne-Yo

Lyrics:

For the way you changed my plans

my plans are always changed if i have training on, more or less.

For being the perfect distraction

of cos, im always distracted from school by training :)

For the way you took the idea that i have

of everything that i wanted to have

and made me see, there was something missing...

totally, i never knew my life could be completed without training. i tot it was completed already.

For the ending of my first begin

yea, now the club closing down, there goes my beginning of the love for a sport.

And for the rare and unexpected friend(s)

do i even need to elaborate on this?!?! they're rare, and unexpected, duh.

For the way you're something that i never choose

yes i was forced to join swimming by my parents, i didnt choose it.

But at the same time something i don't wanna lose

obviously i don't.

And never wanna be without ever again...

yes for as long as im in Singapore, i don't wna be without it...

*You're the best thing i never knew i needed

So when you were here, i had no idea

true isnt it, when the club was still there and training were always on, i only go when i feel like it.

You're the best thing i never knew i needed

Now it's so clear, i need you here always...

now that it's closing down, then i feel all the lost.

My accidental happily (ever after)

The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)

honestly, my worst ever day from school/home always get better after training. they never fail to amuse me.

I must admit, you were not a part of my book

yea true...

But now if you open it up and take a look

You're the beginning and the end of every chapter...

precisely why now almost all my post is all about swimming right...

(*)

Who knew that i could be, so unexpectedly, undeniably happier

sitting with you right here, right here next to me

yea i wouldnt have thought so too, cos when i first joined the club, i dreaded going for training!

Girl you're the best

(*)

Now it's so clear, that i need you here always...

get wat i mean?

2010-05-27T23:45:00.001+08:00

idk why, i just feel unimportant...

2010-05-22T22:34:00.001+08:00

i don believe it all would end... on tuesday.

and would totally be gone.. within a week :'(