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OHMYGOD OHMYGOD HA HA HA 26/09 DAMNN EPIC LAH OMG ha ha ha woke up, went for piano. then went to tp foer swimming comp (which i actually don wanna go) then i was damn pissed off i'm event 20. -- but now im thankful mine's soo far back then i borrowed my fren's parent's event list AND I WAS LIKE OHMYGODDD HE'S SWIMMING ALSO!!!!! yayness ha ha ha yea. then we went upstairs (well unless u've been to tp pool u wouldnt know wat im talking about) then onli me, my sis, isabel/cherie/kaylynn's family. at 1st then when i was up there it was event 6, heat 1 by right, he is event 6 heat 3. then i oso nvr c him report. then i turn back I SAW HIM WALKIN UP ALSO IM LIKE OHMYGOD then he saw me then we smile then i wave, then he wave bck OHMYGOD DAMNNN CUTE LAAAAA then aft he look down to the pool. then he went down. kinda rush. i tink he realised it's his event. LOL yea. so at the place whr i was, i was right above him. WA PIANG HE DAMNNNN SEXY LAH. nvr change, as muscular as he was super broad shoulder. damn nice body excpet 1 thing different, he's damnnn white now. anw. yea, he went there. swim. WITHOUT warming up wWTF SCREW U MAN BLOGGER I BLOG IFNISH U SCRW UP MY BLOGGING. WTH OKAY FOR HIS SAKE I SHALL RETYPE WATEGVER I CN RMBR yea. he got a gold frm there :DDD then ltr on, he had another event and obviously, another gold. I LOVE LOVE LOVE HIS PLUNGE!!!! ohmanssss i miss him like $#(%#( anw. then he came bck up then i was talkin to his bro then he laugh SO CUTEEEEE ohmygod n he was studying geog SO CUTE RITEEEE yes his handwriting looks like mine X) though mine's obviously cuter. no maybe his is cuter. COS HE IS CUTE anw. yea then aft the ind events aft recieving his medal then he stil got relay ha ha ha another 2 golds for him then total 4 golds 50m breastroke 50m butterfly 4x50 medley relay (he swam fly) 4x50 free (he was the 1st leg) then when he was walking to the relay startin pt he walked pass jiaolian then both his bro and him said hi to jiaolian then he smile to jiaolian then he turn n c me still smiling then i also smile back (i was alr smiling b4 tt) SO CUTE SIA HIM SO SHY!!!!!! OHMYGOD i bet girls in his cls wna eat him up >((( anw yea aft tt i had to leave SO SAD nvm ate, reach home at 8 8.30 i left agn to meet amanda, eugene, andrew, sean, kh, daniel. yea then i reach marina i saw ivy's mum and so i met ivy as well and rite SO CRAP LAH YTD THE F1 DAMNNN LOUD SIA LIKE F-ING LOUD NO BODY'S BUSINESS LOUD U NOE. yea then went home. 12.20 reached. LOL anw I WAS SOO HAPY YTD <3<3<3<3 n i miss him alot n prob thanks to him i m who i m today >( anw; ignore ytd fo4 a while today's an important day HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY PARK TAE HWAN!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU! |
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i wna marry park tae hwan cos he's cute talented rich damnn cute amazing swimmer hot body hmp. okay. if not then i wna marry a thai why? cos singaporeans hurt me times and again, wonder why are they all the same. it HAS TO BE the genetics then, cos thai guys arent like tt. rite? PING GO N STUDY COS IF U DON GET PROMOTED U WOUDNT HAV A CHANCE TO MARRY ANYONE COS UR PARENTS MIGHT MURDER YOU. |
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ping is emotionally unstable, SERIOUSLY damn irritating. -.- like -- byebye |
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I CAN AND I WILL THESE GIRLS SHALL BE MY PRIORITIES, AND NO OTHER GUYS n obviously u girls in the pic hav to help me la i cnt do it on my own, well at least now tt im determined enough to sms u all, like just. LOL seriously i miss you guys like #&$($)#_T%#)* i mean it, n u noe it. all of u here are the ones who rly know what kind of person i m. those who know deep inside me, what is my real personality n srsly, u all are irreplacable, seriously... i need to pull pass this particular period my exams are coming up, my dog's going for a surgery 6 days before my a lvl french a week after my french a lvl oral are my promos. 2 weeks after y promos are my french a lvl written papers and a week after that (or 2 weeks aft tt) is the oral presentation. let's see, shit. i never knew promos are this close. and... 9 weeks from now, someone i'm really close to will be leaving. apparently, WE NEED SLEEPOVER, LIKE SERIOUSLY. and i promise i will never forget you, and of cos, INVITE YOU TO MY WEDDING (if i hav one, tt is) and im damn worried abt my dog, more than i am about my exams. someone tell me sth is wrong with me n if u all r wondering wat caused the change, well, i tink u all noe. no need me explain la hor. (maybe i shd start writing in proper english, improve my gp LOL)  self explanatory rite this pic ^^ a future vet, hope-to-be-air stewardess, to-be biology teacher (HAV U CHNGED UR MIND!?!?), and... erm... erm.... er.. idk la i'll be the yao guai, for the time being. i wan another 4e1 class in our clsroom. hey woman how long've i known u? seriously i was trying a pic with u me n ivy. n obviously i cnt find a decent one. WE NEED TO TAKE TT SOON. n we all know why. pls continue being my best fren/counseller/ advisor/ crapper/ shitter wtevr cn be described. and rmbr my blue eyes, blonde hair, tall muscular guy, REMEMBER. I DON CARE IF U CNT GET TT FOR ME IM NT GNA EMAIL U. AND OF COS HE MUZ BE MY AGE OR OLDER, I DON CARE heyy sister in law. <3 maybe i should just continue being YOUR sister in law, ur bro(s) is/are QUITE INTERESTING. X))) wow how long this pic alr! last yr august? yea. we recently met, but at different time. i miss my tofu in french class. I PASSED FRENCH. obviously muz b the handshake i had with jinhao, I M DAMN SURE IT IS. anw CAN WE LS MEET UP SOON I WAN MY TOFUSSSS <3oh oh oh OH. U NOE HE DAMNNN BITCH JUZ NOW I CNT BELIEVE IT OK. LIKE A TOTAL BASTARD. HECKKKKK. I'LL FIND A THAI BOYFRIEND SOON I DON CARE. im in the serious nostalgia mode :'(((( I MISS YOU!!!! |
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sucky >( damnnn sucky. idk wat to say alr promos coming, n i better study b4 i retain. and. this sucks. i'm mentally, physically and emotionally tired. i wna go trng. but thanks to some subject startin wiht the same letter as my name i cnt go trng -.- I&R? oh. i noe. it stands for... idiots&retards and promos -- trust them having test b4 promos. wtevr. heck alr im too tired. where are you, now that i need you the most? your replies are like the healing formula for the flaws in my heart, the flaws that you created. sian. ok go bathe then study agn, i don hav a life. |
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can you believe i'm actually blogging at 12.20 am when i freaking have a test tommorrow, a test which i tried to study and obviously i failed (tts y im here rite tsk) bloody sian idk why srsly. i must promote. if i retain i shall bug my parents to let me go bck thailand/go somewher else tt's not here. (well one of my best fren is alr might as well juz go inside her luggage n go with her rite?) n i guess i'll never pass GP in my whole entire time spent in this sch. (3 cheers for gp) OOOH i tink i got the lowest in cls for gp agn (lets ignore the poor ppl whose mark r deducted like for some reason ) n i'll miss my fren like #($#(%)%^ :'(((( n i wonder if i'm rly in the right place. n my phone went mad today, 1, 4 and 7 are not working. I ALMOST PASS MY FRENCH LISTENING. well, it's still an almost pass. (i'd prefer an almost fail though) n i pass oral lol (pls tel me she's tkin me for my a lvl oral, SERIOUSLY) n econ test is on thurs, which i 'studied' and obviously nth went in. yayness. sigh... n im emotionally unstable, idk wat's wrong with my mood, with myself. i seem to get pissed off kinda easily now n i find it damn irritating (thanks frens for not gettin pissed off yet. u all srsly hav high tolerance) oh. n my tolerance level's getting lower and lower tt i practically curse and swears evryday. (tt is so not like me) n i want it back like in the past, when i hav my punching bag. now no more. :(((( n i'll have 1 less nxt yr :'( i've never hated studying this much b4, never hav i spend 3 hrs doing maths and not get anything correct, nvr had i spend 2 hrs memorising n nth went in, never. never had my english mark been so terrible. my 1st english test i had 18.5/100. apparently now im getting like... 16/100? yea this shows tt u actually don get smarter as u grow older. or isit juz me? probably. and to you(s), i only hav 3 words to say i hate you. seriously. can you pls don try n test my patience? ur comments are not needed ALL THE TIME, do you know that? if not, pls know it now. i miss you, and i'm not that daring to tell you, so here i m, cowardly writing inside my blog, cos i know, you won't even care /don't even noe my blog exist. ok 12.31, gnite. |
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when we were thinking about that someone, he might be thinking about someone else, and there might be someone, who's thinking of us, without us knowing, or giving a damn about him. sometimes, dreaming is better than accepting the reality, that whatever we've thought, were all hopeful dream on our side alone. so, it's not surprising, that most of us, choose to be indulge in the dream, more than accepting the facts. even if we're not the 1st in his heart, it's not something to be sad about we might be 2nd, which is better than 3rd or 4th even if we're the 10th, we hav to think that, it's better than not having any importance, or a place in his heart, at all but please remember, if our heart are still not crying out loud, and at the same time, telling us, i'm so tired, please try to get over him, before i become weaker, then just continue liking him. for loving someone, no efforts are needed getting over them, is where a lot of efforts are required. try and weigh in our heart, between the happiness we feel when our eyes meet with his, and the agony we'll feel if we're avoiding him, which one is harder, tougher. don't blame yourself, for meeting him too late don't blame him, for not sharing this mutual feeling, don't blame fate, for making you and him meet, but did nt make it a mutual feeling instead, just smile to yourself and tell yourself, even though we might've met a little too late, but we have still met. smile to him, even though his heart doesn't belong to you. but he has your heart, right? smile to fate, for at least, it allow us to know each other. you should be happy, because at least once, there was someone whom you want to keep all his smile, to yourself. someone, whom only his smile, can turn your worst day, into the best day that is enough, isnt it? only seeing someone we love, laughing with someone he loves, that is the happiness of love, pure and true love. oh well, i found it somewhere. true all the way, except the last paragraph, for me at least. yea, i want him to be happy, but sorry no, not with someone else. hurhurhur, like duh rite. how to be happy. SIANS |
