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i seriously wna block my blog off some people ohmyghandey - -''' anyway, new song, which goes out to ALL my friends, i emphasize, ALL my friends, especially directing it to you. :) at the very least u don't have to worry i'd turn lesbian, i'm perfectly straight, but the lyrics are REALLY meaningful :). Title: The one behind Artiste: Aof Pongsak (ohmygod i love love love love love his voice :) :) :) ) All you ever have to do is to accept all my sincerity. There's no need for anything in return. You don't even have to worry, don't even have to care about me, I just want you to know that there's someone... Someone who had, and would always be behind you. Someone who has eyes, carefully watching you with care. Someone who feels overwhelmed with joy, to see you happy. When the whole world came crashing down on you, I just want you to know... * (Chorus) That I'll be taking care of you, when you have no-one left. There's nothing much more that I want, other than hoping you would think of me sometimes, and that when you're worried or feeling down, all you have to know is that I care. And I want you to know, that with all my heart, I love you. If only you would look back just for once, that one time, would be the happiest moment in my heart. There's no need for us to be in love, there's no need for any understanding. All you have to know is that you still have me... * (Chorus) That I'll be taking care of you, when you have noone left. There's nothing much more that I want, other than hoping you would think of me sometimes, and that when you're worried or feeling down, all you have to know is that I care. And I want you to know, that with all my heart, I love you. I just want to love you... That's all. |
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so many things happened over the weekend but heck, it's over now. i hope it is, at least. anyway... just hang in there k? u're one strong person, one of the strongest i've ever known. physically, mentally (or not?), emotionally. you're gonna be fine... i know you will. i know you're nt in the mood to talk to me, but at the very least i hope you'd see this. and i hope it'll help you pull through wtevr crap you're going through... and remember this, no matter what happens, no matter how things have changed. i'm quite sure one thing that would remain unchange, is the fact that i'll always be here for you. i might not physically be there, but u have to know, somewhere out there in the scary world, no matter where i'll be, no matter what i'm doing, if you need someone, i'm always here. whether you want it or not. and i shall annoy the hell outta you if you still gimme no respond, i'd rather see you annoyed with me, than to see you this sad. you've been with me when i went through my tough time, and i will be here with you, through the tough time in your life. take care... and i love you. come my blog soon, k? i'll be changing my blog song. the meaning sibei nice :D (as usual) ANYWAY TODAY GT SOME UNI TALK UH. THEN THE SPEAKER WAS GARETH'S BROTHER. :O. anw... WTHECK, VET ONLY HAS 1 INTAKE?! U MEAN IF I WNA DO VET I'VE TO FLOAT AROUND FOR A YEAR, BEFORE I CAN APPLY?!?!??!?! SAVE ME. my mama tell me don't wait. ARGH. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!?!? save me, someone. ARGHHHH. |
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(for those who're here for titans post please skip this, it's the next one) i'd rather dash across the road and get knocked down by a care, than to lose a single bit of your chance. so i think might as well jump off the building, cos i think i've lost all of it. i'm sorry, idk any other word to say other than this, i'm sorry. sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry :'( (i typed too many sorries i'm wondering if i even spelt it correctly :'() I'M SORRY :'( I REALLY AM :'(((( ohmygod how am i supposed to do this how am i suppose to express my feeling, i'm very sorry, :'( fml. :'( just when i was so damn bloody happy :'( |
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SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING BUT SORRY CANT RESIST TEMPTATIONS TO BLOG YO! :D okay soooo my alarm rang. oh. i dreamt about titans last night - -''' anw yea it rang, so i woke up, thinking what day isit then i realised. saturday. *looks at the clock* oh gosh it's alr 6.55 i wasted 5 mins trying to wake myself up after alarm. so i got up bathe, set off for school. so i talked to gloria about *BUNS* then talked to alpha titans and then tried to pull christy's shorts down (seeking revenge) i swear it was such a wrong decision cos apparently she lifted my shirt up succesfully - -''' ohmyghandey. and then i sat on her (Y). and then there was water slashing. and then.. idk. many more happening moment but nvm. so the rules were told. gamma were to go first, then beta, then alpha, and delta. with a gap of 5 minutes each. soooooo..... i cant rmbr who told me to station myself at tanah merah interchange (which i wanted to initially but felt extra (i bet at this pt of time there are people who go YEA U BLOODY EXTRA WA LAO, but sorry i don't really care). so since someone suggested, so i did. i went to tm and wait. the gap btw gamma and beta, and beta and alpha were exact 5 minutes. gamma came in at like 8.51, then beta at 8.56, and alpha at 9.01. GO ALPHA!!! GO CHRISTY! GO GLORIA! anw. yep then after alpha went off, around 5 minutes? i went to the bus stop. the bus came. it went passed them, and when the door open i could hear GO ALPHA! okay go alpha i'm sorry i couldnt shout from in the bus :( then... i waited at the sch bus stop then i ran in with them. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, I RAN IN. anw. yep so tt was it :) and after the run it was time for taupok session and talking session and raping session and picture session ohmygod. - -''' then it was time for them to rest. so i decided i wasnt needed at that point of time, so i was walking around on my own, looking at the boards and picture. then went into toilet, wash my sweat off, and just slack there. after a while i went back up, to realise most ppl alr left for somewhere (OH F IT IT'S 5.02 I WAS SUPPOSED TO START STUDYING AT 5) then i saw my bag and water bottled being carried. and then water was sprayed into my face. and so i splash back. then we walked on the field. and then i taupok christy again (have to uh if nt no chance alr) DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. and then we went to lt3, for results. ZHE KANG GOT MS PULL UPS, AND BREAK RECORD SET 4 YEARS AGO :D :D :D :D CHRISTY GOT MS SIT UPS! :D :D :D :D and then... when it came to ms titans.... we were waiting.... (i had confidence okay i swear i was confident) so 10th, 9th.... 5th, 4th.... then top 3. THERE WAS A TIE IN 3RD POSITION. so i was thinking, that would either means there're no 2nd position or there is so i tot there would be a 2nd position so i waslike please not now not now... i want to hear her name ltr!!! but apparently the oac instructor went... AND MS TITAN 2010 IS........ (at this pt of time i was lke OK I WNA HEAR THAT NAME RIGHT NOW) CHRISTY LEE FROM ALPHA!!!! (trust me the lt might just explode) so when it was house trophy... it was a debate btw gamma or beta at that pt of tme i was smsing yuansong replying him after telling him christy gt ms titans. alpha was quiet real quiet. and then... THE CHAMPION FOR TITANS 2010 GOES TO..... (continue smsing) ALPHA!!!!!!!! *2s of silence* SCREAMS SHOUT OHMYGODDDDDDDDDDD OHMYGOD ALPHA WON OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OMGOMGOMGOHMGG!!!!!!!!! (it was like that for the next 5 mins or so, or longer) i didnt know wat to do i looked at brenda she looked at me we both scream WE DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHETHER TO HUG OR TO CLAP OR WHAT. WE JUST SCREAM! then it was phototaking session AGAIN. oh well :) they deserve it right? :) :) :) then.... it was time for lunch so we went for lunch at justacia wa my poor legs were hurting. imagine how the titans' were. ohmyghandey. and then we ate and then.. a lot of laughs. then christy me philip and jianle took mrt back and then we had more laughs. ... .. . OH WELL I ENJOYED TODAY!!!!!!! worth it even if i didnt study a bit. - -''' cos i m starting as soon as i finish this post. (i know there was more to it but i forgot - -''') then... yea i just forget. anw. to ZHEKANG: GOODJOB GIRL. ESP FOR THE RUN. EVEN WITH YOUR "DISKNEE" :D i'm so damn proud of you, you flyer! :D and so proud of myself for knowing you for so damn long! :D :D :D you should leave long hair, you were so damn pretty today, seriously! AND I WAS SHOUTING YOUR NAME LIKE NOONE'S BUSINESS. to GLORIA: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUBBING IN EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT FEELING WELL! i'm so sorry if it was because u felt bad that i begged you to join... :( but whatever it is, YOU HELPED ALPHA. and u got carried by so many guys wa lau - -''' TRAIN HARD AND I KNOW YOU CAN BE THE NEXT MS TITANS! :D to CHRISTY: ohmyghandey i was supposed to taupok you cos u got ms titans but u ran away, and when you run, I LOSE. i'm so damn holy proud of you, i knew you could do it! (i swear i had confidence) and you really did. all the way christy lee, it's time to mug. like, MUG. i know it's sad, but what to do? just pia lor. so you wont regret when you finish, cos u know u finish it, with your best :) and u NEVER let me down in any other way, other than the one i told you. (which i won't blame you now that you have to mug.) all the way, be an ogl, and i WILL come back. i promise :) OKAY. PING MUGGER MODE ACTIVATED! it's time to MUG MUG MUG ! >( 105days left ping, 105. jiayou. i CAN and i WILL. WE CAN, AND WE WILL PULL THROUGH THIS TOGETHER OKAY! :) 5.32, i exceeded by half hour.ohmygod - -''' |
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TITANS! :D i don't regret not joining, but had i not gone to support, i'd have regretted it like.. idk. hohoho. and so... it was the individual events today. squat thrust christy fell once, but who cares man she persevered :D i nt rly sure the exact number but yea... inhuman. zhekang fell also... DON EMO ALR OKAY BUFFGIRL. rmbr my reason for crying is more retarded than yours :) sit ups WOW, is the word. i helped jiahui pushed her legs down. and u know wat happened before the girls did sit up? MY BRA GOT UNHOOKED. SAVE ME. - -!!! oh yes, i forgot to mention. there were severall attempt of rape today, including pulling down of shorts, flipping shirt and of cos, UNHOOKING BRA?! anw. suicide run i marked, 5 out of 6 runs for alpha. and i was supposed to run back at the last lap. i died - -''' wtheck all the runners don need sprint alr 2x my speed. if they sprint? 20 TIMES THE SPEED. well done to christy :D (possible ms suicide. wth?!) and zhekang, take care of ur knees! sooo final station for girls was pull ups oh well zhekang may just be called ms pull ups (ohmyghandey) but alpha cui alr. nvm we did well for the other 3! :D :D :D and then log throw. i thought it was just, throwing log as far as possible apparently not - -''' anw.... yep tt was it. a few ppl injured. :( someone tell me how to block specific ppl from reading my blog can? - -''' i want it to be open but i can't help wanting to like... block out some ppl - -''' ALL THE WAY ALPHA TITANS! :D |
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yawnssss so... as usual, when i'm bored. i go hunting for nice article. and indeed, i found one. two actually, but i'll just write this one first. cos there's someone i really want her to read this. Bestfriends, are they the one who knows you best, and are always by your side? Yep, that maybe true, but that's only part of it. Because...your bestfriend, is the one who would understand your feeling even if you don't say anything. your bestfriend, is the one you would think of, when you're upset. your bestfriend, is the one you would call, to get tips on how to go about going after tour crush. your bestfriend, is the one you can see anytime you want to. your bestfriend, is the one who can make you cry, and make you stop crying. your bestfriend, is the one who would NEVER leave you when you're in trouble. your bestfriend, is the one whom you have no worry about how you'd look around them. your bestfriend, is the one whom you can scold, insult or make sarcastic remarks, without having to think. your bestfriend, is the one who would, at all extent, tolerate your moodswing. your bestfriend, is the one whom you would NOT think of, when you're with your girl/boyfriend. your bestfriend, is the most lonely one when you're attached, 'cos you no longer have time for him/her. your bestfriend, is the one who'll make you feel most awkward if you fall for them. and your bestfriend, is the one who's left to settle their own problem, when they're secretly in love with you. Take care of your bestfriend, because you never know how sad they would be, when you say you loved someone else, or how sad and lonely they would be, when you're in love. Give time to your bestfriend, because you never know, when they will be gone... cheer up yo. you know you always have me here... (although i might not be the 1st one you think of - -''', which is actually quite sad... :( ) but wtevr.... let me know if u need help, or u just wna whine. cos i'm all ears. I LOVE YOU ^^ |
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idk why, but google chrome definitely has something against me - -!!!! anyway... the new timetable sucks much. seriously. and ooo yay to all j2 students, now we all would have an average of 5 tests per week *claps* :D i'm happy actually, at least now i have something to do. the problem? I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHERE ON EARTH I SHOULD START FROM. you see, we're gonna have a chem test on inorg chapters. (excluding periodic table) and then, we're gonna have a mock A level paper 2 (i.e. it's the whole syllabus) so i should just study the whole syllabus?ARGHHHH. n then there's bio RE, and bio SPA. and maths. and... CRAP I FORGOT NTU CONCEPT TEST. mama. k enough abt those stuff we're gna pull through. i think. :) okay sooo ytd i went out with 2 Tofus (cos they're really fair, and i'm their charcoal cos.. well yea u know why) went to city hall, ate mos burger. went to walk arnd tt area cos of some museum fest. aiya who cares abt those fest, WE TALKED AND SCREAMED SO DAMN MUCH (Y) and we really really miss french class, and madame and her sarcasm/cuteness. HAIIII. and i miss you tofus :(. and on friday, i went to support TITANS! well i should have gone earlier >( damnn. i went there in time to catch them running back. GO CHRISTY, GO ALPHA!!!! ok. so christy came in 3rd for the individual 5k run. (wtf rite?! i'd prob be 3rd from the last, well provided i don't die along the 5k route cos i can barely complete 400m - -) wooohooo :) :) :). then it was log event. well at the 1st station all by-standers had to keep away from the area, so i stayed away and was on the stairs. shouting and screaming GOO ALPHAAAAA!!!! wa lao so many no count - -'''' i think it was the bicep curl or something along tt line, yep. then at 2nd station, i gave up and went into the area. idk wat it's called but it's lifting the log over ur head, arm straightened and put on the other shoulder. i think it's shoulder press. and then it was half squats. then sit up (if that's wat it's called). casper's leg cramped. so i helped him stretch. what a good ogl i am :). and... :) :) :) ♥ (well if you're close enough that i tell u what went on in my life u'd know why the :) are there :) :) :) ) ♥ and then the final station... ehhh i think it's chest press. ohmyfgod i swear they're all buffff people! how on earth could anyone gone through that ohmygod. me for one, cant. and guess what.... ALPHA IS IN THE LEAD YO! :D :D :D :D :D good job alpha titans. and to dino good job ttm u buffdinosaur. so if u get ms titans i will taupok u. and by any chance event, u didnt get ms titans, i'll let you taupo me. k? :) doubt u'll see this anyway - -'''' and ohmygod i've to get hold of myself and stop thinking too much - -''' i get jealous too easily i don't like it!!!! >( >( >( >( >( ARGHHHHHH!!!! >( and i dreamt i went out with an 11-yr-old kid. cool shit rite. his mother also went but he wanted to go haunted house then the mama didnt wna go in. so i went in with him. ohmygod i don even rmbr how he looks like but i shd stop going for SUCH A YOUNG BOY. i cap my maximum at 3 yrs younger ONLY. :) SHITTTTTT PROTECTED TIME LA WA LAOOOOO. and i hate pe. |
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I PASS GP, I FREAKING PASS GP!!!!!!!!!! i know a lot of u will say, so? BUT IT'S MY 1ST TIME, IT REALLY IS!!!! (other than the "S" i got in 2009 jct, I'VE BEEN GETTING STRAIGHT U'S!!!!) so to many of you out there, if from a 0 percentile noob lowest person like me, CAN PASS, SO CAN YOU! well even if i deprove in other subject... :( |
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I WILL WAIT!!! I SHALL STOP RUNNING AND SEARCHING!!! (not literally cos i never start, anyway) A LEVEL shall be my one and only love from now on. well, other than my FAMILY and FRIENDS. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)! |
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idk how to describe my feeling. but i just found this song, which actually totally describe me. it just feels... like.. idk. weird. i don even know how to explain my feeling. but i can break down anytime. and it's not you fault, it's not her fault either, so don't feel bad. it's my fault, for being too simple minded. for being such a soft-hearted person, for being such an emotional girl, for being so damn bloody sensitive... screw you ping. i swear... ok i was deciding which song i should upload as my blog song, i decide. since i should just let go... i shall use this one... Artiste: Instinct Title: Please send me someone. Must I feel lonely for an even longer time? How many times must I sigh? How many more times, must i face disappointment in love, before I'm satisfied? I have to listen to love song alone, 'cos for me, it has always been one-sided. I look around, I see noone having such disappointment, so why, why me? I keep telling myself, there will be some day, when there will be someone who will come by. I keep reminding myself, there will be some day, but... when? Please send someone to love me, 'cos it's so cold right now, to be alone. I want to know how true love feels like, and true love do exist, don't they? Please send someone to be my soulmate, to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely, to help me understand love, and to be loved, like others. It's too lonely, so lonely I cannot stand it. I tried to stop myself from searching, but I could never. I really want to know, how it feels, like, to be in love, and to be loved. I keep telling myself, there will be some day, when there will be someone who will come by. I keep reminding myself, there will be some day, but... when? Please send someone to love me, 'cos it's so cold right now, alone. I want to know how true love feels like, and true love do exist, don't they? Please send someone to be my soulmate, to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely, to help me understand love, and to be loved, like others. Just like others, just once, Please help me understand love, and to be loved, like others. |
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wtf, i wna slap myself. i really do. wtf :'( WTF :'( wtf i wna die. seriously screw this. and if it's mutual just go ahead, so what if i like him, he doesnt like me. tt's it. i don't want him to hate me, just because i'm holding you back from going ahead. wtf. i should just.. idk. wtf. i wna say i wna give up. apparently i fall easy, and i fall HARD. wtf. wtf. |
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to you, i shall name you A. that's it. that was my final hope. if there's nothing, i've pinky-promised dino, promise angeline/serene/wanling/lijing, that i will delete you off my phone, and my memory. (not that i have that much... but it's worth a lot. really a lot. i wonder why too) and then, when anyone ask me, "do you still like ____?", i can go NO. straight no. i'm sorry but i really never felt anything like this to anyone before, i'm really sorry. i'm sorry if i'm one of the mishap in your life... i promise, you'll have none of that left. somehow, i'm hoping that there'd be nothing. i want a clean stop from you, i really do. and i think, i've come the correct way. to you (not just 1 but a whole bunch) i don care how many Us you're gna get, but i only have you all. so please don't worry about it too much. you still have time, you really do. and i'm sure, i'm smarter than none of you, so if i can do it. so can you. we CAN and we WILL, okay? :) and to you, can it really change THIS much over a night? |
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you, you, you, you, you and you, stop making me sad. cos seeing all of you sad, makes me feel like crying. :'( and i hate you for making me sad :'( |
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hehehe. free koi bbt \^^/ (okay fine even if it's nt entirely free, it's subsidized :D ) thank you! ^^. next time if i open my own bbt shop i treat all the 16 of you ok? - -''' imma happy girl :D okay enough about happiness lemme talk abt sadness now :( I DISAPPOINT MY CHEM TUTOR :'( i have a "disspointing :( " ON MY CHEM PAPER COVER PAGE. u know how much tt hurts? :'( i hate to disappoint teacher, cos disappointing them means they actually have high hope for me, and they know i can do it.... but i just didn't... :'( imma sad girl now :( so was my bio teacher :'((( (although i made her laugh till she wna die but still...) CORN BORER IS A FREAKING PEST, NOT THE PERSON WHO GROW CORN, PING GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD! >( im sorry ms. ho :( :( :( :( :( and now each time i hear my jnrs tell me they screwed something up, i feel like crying. i like this set of exco members, and i don't wat it changed :'( and i cn feel their disappointment. idk wat's wrong with the school making the papers so damn hard, and making them suffer. at this rate, the only CCA that would be on going is probaby science council. and please, sometimes making the paper too hard = we have to think a lot = when the real qns comes out and it's straight forward, we think too hard = wrong = screwed = no A. = you'll blame us for not performing for school = papers would be made even HARDER for the next batch... and the cycle repeats.... thanks a lot. i know you all meant well, but it can backfire. it really can. a lot of students spend their time thinking why the question so straight forward, that when it comes to a hard qns, they have no time left. oh well..think about it man. (if i get hurt this time, idk who to blame. isit me for being too soft hearted, or isit you, who made me feel special?) |
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somehow, it's just always me, yea? i'm juz unlucky enough. thanks a lot. wonder what wrong did i do. nvm, looking forward to tomorrow... n i cant believe i'm looking forward to tuesday. not for the class definitely, i'm waiting for AFTER school :) :) :)! :D oh well... :( im so sian now :'( n it's 12 now :( happy new day :( :( :( 1 more day to school. ARGHHHH hate it. >(((((( HELP. im definitely down for 3 subjects remedials. ARGH. screw you GP econs maths - -'' idk which one i hate more, school or lizards. - -'''' (yes im becoming very random cos im BORED). and i shd be sleeping, rly. so i shall translate 1 note... n make more ppl cry :) AND NADAL WON!!! :D :D :D :D |
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Title: Don't have to be anyone. When I want to love, love someone, reasons are less important than the feeling in my heart. It wouldn't be too much, if I say, I love, just because i want to. And no matter how others see it, I don't really care. All I know is that I love you, love you with all my heart. I don't know where, I don't know how, but it just has to be you. There's nowhere about you that I don't love, I love you that you are you, it's not just a temporary infatuation, because the only person I'd ever love, is you. (*chorus) I won't ask for you to be like anyone, 'cos they are not you. But can I please ask you to be you, just you, only you. I don't know how tomorrow would be, good or bad. But whatever it is, I'll never regret that I love you When they say someone is beautiful, what are they judging on? When they say someone is perfect, where are they looking at? But what I know and I'm very sure of, I look at your heart, 'cos no matter which view I look at it, all I'd ever see... is pure beauty... (*chorus) I don't ask for you to be like anyone, 'cos they are not you. But can I please ask you to be you, just you, only you. I don't know how tomorrow would be, good or bad. But whatever it is, I'll never regret that I love you (X2) Whatever is going to happy, I'll never feel sorry, That I love you... ps: i shall wait for the day, someone sings this to me. |
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if only i had 1% of the dream, i don't need you to start talking to me, all i want, is for you to stop ignoring me. |
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end of jct. seriously, goodbye my A for chem :'( hai... all organic GONE. all i could do was to draw the structure of the compound in the qns. how amazing. and when i saw pyruvic acid i was trying to figure out how many Cs does pyruvate have, and realised it's 3. and it fits the question. so, i conclude no CO2 lost. but i didnt writ ett down. i'd be so much happier if the qns went "describe the fate of pyruvate in sufficient supply of oxygen" WA LAOOOO. :'( hai. idk why i get so jealous sooo damn easily :( i guess it's just me who can feel insecure all the time :'( i need a crush. seriously. |
