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the longest we went without contact is 13 days. it's only a single digit now. wait ping, wait. |
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i feel like changing my blog song, so i shall. i think i've used this song before alr. but nvm... as to who i dedicate this song to... it's really either you know, or you don't :) Title: Missing you Artiste: Golf-Mike Lyrics: Have you any idea at all, how lonely I feel without you? And what is on my mind all the time, is where are you right now? Is there anyone to talk to you, to take care of you? I just want you to know, that someone far away, always has you on her mind. (*) There're white fluffy clouds and a breeze of wind over a field of flowers, stretching through to the horizon at where I am right now. But how good would it be, if you were right here with me. (**) I pray to the wind, and hope that it would blow over, bringing all these to you. Whatever goodness I experience, I want you to experience it too. Wherever you are right now, I pray that the wind, would blow my heart to you. To tell you, that someone right here, is missing you all the time. Who are you with? What are you doing? Have you ever thought of me, when we're far apart? How I wish the clock would move faster, so I can see you sooner. (*, **, **) To let you know, that someone right here, is missing you all the time... NICE SONG RIGHT! |
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dear ping, STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! - -''''!!!! |
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hai :( byebye jianbin :( :( :( :( :( :( :'((((( i did what i could do (of cos, not everything cos i stil cant read chinese)... and i think i won't be that lucky. but everytime i look at the picture, i realised how lucky i am... not many had the chance, but i guess, now, MANY have the chance.. :( and hell, i went through a time of curling up in bed and whine, literally. once in a while i'll get up, run to the toilet to vomit/ls. :( life sucks, doesnt it? now that i have a day MC, im STILL going to school tomorrow... :( nvm, just go. and hell.. someone help me. someone tel me how to record tv please :( :( and i'm still waiting, surprise like like how u did last night. u hv no idea hw shocked and happy i was. |
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seems like... i'm born to screw up every single chance i'm given. gimme one more chance, treat me how you did before, i promise i won't take the wrong step again... :( a one worded email reply hurts, fyi. |
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imma confused girl. like a pingpong ball, cos i'm round and idk where to roll to. helpp... i'm too confused, maybe it's co of resemblance. or maybe it's not. ugh. save me. confusing right. i am too. very. hai :( i wna turn back time, back to my intern day where i'm too tired to think about anything. hai.... and maybe i should appreciate how thing were back then. argh. *confused* |
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4 years ago, on 3rd December 2006, i fell in love with Park Tae Hwan, a 17-year-old Korean swimmmer who won gold, and broke Asian record. followed by winning another gold medal, in the 400m freestyle event. and then another gold in the 1,500m freestyle, breaking the asian record, and was the asian guy to have swum under 15 minutes. and guess what, i cried on that very day, cos instead of broadcasting the 1,500m, they broadcasted badminton instead. and so, i missed his final event. now, almost 4 years later, on the 15th of August 2010, i again fell in love with He Jianbin, a 17-year-old Chinese swimmer who won gold in 100m backstroke in YOG. followed by another gold in the mixed-freestyle relay. a silver from 4x100m freestyle relay, and another gold from 4x100m mixed medley relay, and on the very day, i teared. cos i know i wouldn't have the chance to see him ever again, and that idk how to record the tv. oh well... the only difference is 4 years, i was 14 back then, i'm 18 now. i'm 3 years younger than park tae hwan, and i'm a year older than he jianbin. both of them do freestyle, just different distance. park tae hwan is a long distance swimmer, taking usually 200m, 400m and 1500m, while he jianbin is a sprinter (at the very least, from what i know), who took 50m and 100m freestyle. and addtion bonus for jianbin, for being a backstroker as well :D Park Tae hwan's 185cm tall, He Jianbin 186 tall, Taehwan weighs 74kg, and jianbin, 72kg. and they WILL meet, in the Asian games. i doubt they'll meet in individual events, unless Taehwan decides to take 100m freestyle again. other than that, they'll probably meet in the relay. so i won't have to worry about who to support ha ha ha. hai :(. well at the very least, the old ping is back, emo-ing over guys (whether or not they are real) and results. but yea, i should know how lucky i am. and to everyone, embarrassment only occurs for a period of time, but the memory that you get, stays forever. that's what i learnt :) So, i conclude... ♥♥♥♥♥♥ 사랑합, 박태환 ♥♥♥♥  ♥♥♥♥♥♥ 我爱你, 何建彬 ♥♥♥♥  ♥♥♥♥♥♥ |
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ohmygod mass civics was epic. i laugh till my stomach pain, (yes, I ACTUALLY ENJOYED CIVIS TODAY HA HA HA) there was this ex TJC-ian who came back to give the talk, initally was quite the usual stuff about stress management. (haha now tt i wna blog abt it i actually went to search abt the test, ANGELINE AND SERENE I'LL TELL U THE RESULTS TMR! :D boring result - -''') then she got on to personality and how we manage stress according to the personality. so the 1st was a D, (i cnt rmbr wat it stands for but generally...) goal orientated, born leader, decisive bla bla bla, and then the way they relieve stress, is through physical means. so cos of that, ANGELINE AND SERENE CLAIMS THAT I'M A D. sorry no, i'm not :D but i conclude, that angeline is the D, and not me. okay so the next letter was a I, which stands for... idk what i cnt rmbr. lol. anw, so the traits were... outgoing, enthusiastic, compassionate, talkative, SO WHILE READING THE TRAITS, ANGELINE, SERENE AND I WERE LAUGHING OUR ASS OFF COS APPARENTLY, I COULD FIT IN EVERY SINGLE DESCRIPTION. i know, i know, im an optimistic person :D but no, that wasnt the more funny part. the really funny part came in, when the negative part comes in. lol. disorganize, irresponsible, emotional, get angry easily... yea, and when the speaker speak she went, "so usually the high I person... on this table's person... is usually more messy than other people" - angeline and serene laugh and nod. and then probably, their notes are everywhere - they nodded and they may even be borrowing notes from other people! - THEY NODDED AND THEY WERE LIKE PING OHMYGOD EXACTLY YOU. and then they laugh at the "get angry easily" and laugh and laugh. and then it was the "how they deal with stress" slide, so.. i cnt rmbr the exact word but yea, they say, the high i people tend to become EVEN MORE talkative, but at the same time, they can be REALLY emotional. AND THEN THOSE 2 LAUGH AGAIN. (yea all the while i was laughing but they were laughing at me it's different!) n then below that, is the greatest fear.... and for the i... it's REJECTION. AND NOW THEY LAUGH THE LOUDEST. nyeh.- -''' fine fine fine. i know i'm a high I person, u 2 jealous :D cos apparently serene is a CS, and angeline is... idk. IC, ID?! HA HA HA. |
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peace (Y). i'm so peaceful now. i think. oh well at the very least i'm not like not having peace in my mind. ok i smel sth burnt i needa go look at the fry-er- -''' i forgot to put my pop chicken in, okay. waiting for another reply and settle this once and for all. and i needa study. i spent my last few days.... okay here's wat i did. thursday: movie!!! :D :D :D my 1st Bangkok Traffic Love Story. and fell in love with it, LIKE DUH. friday: national day celeb, meeting with weilin/weishan/yu tong for sakae buffet. and lots of catching up and laugh-till-you-cant-breathe convo. saturday: went to sch for bio, then went home and watch dvd (Y). sunday: BangkokTraffic Love story for the 2nd time with my family at vivo, walked arnd vivo cos my mama liked it, then went home, went to the beach with dogs. and let them run like mad. then went back home, with sandflies bites as souvenirs. cool much. oh, i did aq. but only halfway cos i got distracted by thai actress's twitter. interesting shit. (Y) monday: decided to start doing work, so did tutorial 4 in front of the tv. and i finished it at almost 2am at night. tuesday, which is today, i shal eat, then study respn/photosyn (nt both, i'm choosing one) then do a chem essay paper. then maths IN FRONT OF TV :D :D :D so i muz complete 2 1st, then i can watch tv. ps: the show i'm watching, the lead actor is the one who's the lead actor in Bangkok Traffic Love Story :D :D |
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 Next station, I WILL SAY I LOVE YOU  "will you be free this Songkran?"   "i make a move first" :)   "for you!"  "HE IS MINE, please"  The girl, who want to be wanted the most.  The guy, who girls want the most. how i wish i was back there, no matter how messy the town is or how horribly hot the city is, it's so much better than wherever i am right now. and i've concluded, i want a thai husband, i really do. well but then by Murphy's law, what can go wrong, will go wrong. so it seems i wont be able to get a thai husband, oh wtevr man, i wna go back there and work... seriously. i cant imagine staying here for my WHOLE LIFE. where all i can do during long holidays is, 1. go out some mall 2. go beach 3. go sentosa (if got $$$) 4. stay home and cui. wtSHIT?! ok ping relax, a few more days, i mean, 92 days. no, 92 days only to the starting. fine, 100 plus more days till the end, and a few days after that i shall fly off. and i shall beg my mum to lemme stay there as long as i want. i love love love love thailand, and no matter how screwed up my country's political status is, no matter how dirty it is compared to here, no matter how low the security is compared to here, i can confidently say, that i'm happier there. at least, judging from how i grew up. at the very least, i didnt grow up with multiple tuition classes and remedial classes, nor did i grow up with the stress of promoting... life... |
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test tomorrow, what a joke and cool, i found another nice article, which apparently it seems as if the author knows me, and is telling me this. (this is definitely at the expense of my RE. die)  Loneliness isn't exactly THAT horribly scary, it's just a period of time that you should spend with yourself, after interfering and being involved in others life for quite some time. If you had fallen down, you should be more careful when walking, not totally give up walking. maybe sometimes, we humans, have to accept things that we don't understand, and accept others' decision even though it may do no good to ourselves, because we can't choose what's going to happen in our life, all the time. Love has a life, just like flower, and there is no vase existed, which can keep the beauty of the flowers in it, everlastingly. Sadness is not unusual, but being continuously drowned in sorrow and sadness, is. while the earth continues to revolve around the sun, she has to not forget, to rotate around herself. similarly, when you love someone, don't forget to love yourself. If we can only have one love in our life, then it is worth crying when everything is over. but in reality, we can have more than thousands of love in our whole life. when you feel like you have noone left, that's a sign, to tell you that it's time, you place some importance in yourself. we can remember anything, but when we remember, sometimes it just cant be forgotten. all we can do, is try to not think about it, or think about it, minimally. no matter how hurtful love is today, but for once, you have loved, and was loved by the one you want, you're lucky enough. credit: www.dek-d.com nice right? |
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i guess the current song doesn't apply anymore. so for now, i'll put my current fav song. i was feeling horrible ttm. trust me, the movie Bangkok Traffic Love Story cheered me up. go and watch, seriously. it's very worth it. thankfully there're ppl arnd me to help me from :((((((( to :((( to :( and then to :/... thank you so much. whoever you are, you know it. and at least i know neon do care about me. i was never wrong when i nicknamed you that. you're usually so unreactive, yet you light up my life. thank you... and so, my fav song. after watchin the show, i've come to terms that i seriously should just wait. when it's time, the right one would come along. i'm hoping it's a thai. idk why, but the word "Rak" (which is love in thai), and the word love, has different effect on me. i love this song, nevertheless. Artiste: Instinct Title: Please send me someone. Must I feel lonely for an even longer time? How many times must I sigh? How many more times, must i face disappointment in love, before I'm satisfied? I have to listen to love song alone, 'cos for me, it has always been one-sided. I look around, I see noone having such disappointment, so why, why me? I keep telling myself, there will be some day, when there will be someone who will come by. I keep reminding myself, there will be some day, but... when? Please send someone to love me, 'cos it's so cold right now, to be alone. I want to know how true love feels like, and true love do exist, don't they? Please send someone to be my soulmate, to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely, to help me understand love, and to be loved, like others. It's too lonely, so lonely I cannot stand it. I tried to stop myself from searching, but I could never. I really want to know, how it feels, like, to be in love, and to be loved. I keep telling myself, there will be some day, when there will be someone who will come by. I keep reminding myself, there will be some day, but... when? Please send someone to love me, 'cos it's so cold right now, alone. I want to know how true love feels like, and true love do exist, don't they? Please send someone to be my soulmate, to keep me company, to never let me feel lonely, to help me understand love, and to be loved, like others. Just like others, just once, Please help me understand love, and to be loved, like others. |
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i'm sorry. and congratulations, you're the 1st few girls who've made me cry. i never thought tt would be possible (except when amanda left and TGAC close down) thanks a lot. |
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wow cool cool cool cool much the layout damn cool ohmygod new one ohmygod shit. (Y) |
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i love bio, i love my teacher. just looking at her bimbotic action and sarcastic comment can cheer me up totally. thanks ms ho... i am COMPLETELY myself around you, i never felt i had to hide anything, nor do i feel suffocated or restricted. why isit that you feel that way now? and what am i supposed to do at this sudden change. it was okay, at least, i tot it was okay yesterday. what happened? i'm sorry if i'm too sticky and made you feel uncomfortable, or irritated, you have no idea how much it hurts me. but one thing, i don't believe it totally, i trust you still, even after your obvious avoiding me. call me stupid, i don't care, cos indeed, i am. whatever i say now is just gonna make you feel offended. what to do? |
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by right i was supposed to finish tutorial 2 and 3 by left, i only finish tutorial 2, and 3 question of tutorial 3. ha ha ha - -''' i spend 98% of the time stoning and procrastinating. oh well, whats new, RIGHT? anw, i found this strip of comic on the same website, as usual. DAMN CUTE RIGHT? :) absolutely true. I WNA WATCH BANGKOK TRAFFIC LOVE STORY :)     |
