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:'( is exactly how i feel. at least i'm thankful there're always friends/monkeys at TGAC there, waiting for me after an emo day... even when i'm depressed i can still be the joke yea? and my jiaolian so nice... "sad also one day, happy also one day, so why not juz make the sad day and be happy everyday. don't tink so much and don be so sad alr!" i love TGAC... and andy's supposed to be headless the next time i see him. he better be... and amanda, ivy slapped me today alr. hai... i onli got 50.5 for bio. way below my expectation. way way below... i don understand why, i do know facts, but why during exam, i juz can't answer? i realise again, tt TGAC ppl are actually the ppl tt cnt be found anywhere else.... and i shall change my blog song... Title: Is it love Artiste: Grand The star Lyrics: i ask myself, what's wrong with me, why does my heart feel different, each time our eyes meet. i'm always anxious each time i'm near you, when we're apart, i longed for you. i want to see you every minute... *i don't know, how am i supposed to behave should i let it be, or should i stop right here? what i know is, despite my heart's calling, i still am, avoiding you. **it's love isn't it? that's why my heart feel this way? can someone tell me? i am very unsure. "i love you, don't i?" that's what i ask my heart, but i still don't get it i wonder how long would it take, before i find out the answer.... to be with you, seems like it can only be an unreachable dream would time be on my side, would the truth be revealed? because it's you, who make my heart unsure, myself confused. sometimes i just feel lonely for no reason, sometimes my heart just cries, and pity myself... i wonder how long it'd take, before i finally understand.... |
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amanda, weilin, wei shan, yu tong... i need you all here, right now. im going through wat i went through in sec 4 yet again... suffering from another heart break. i realy am born to be heart broken right? and wtf is wrong with me, i have no idea. i've been eating and eating none stop, i can't control myself like i could and wtf, within like 1 week? i gain 4 kg. from 66, im back to 70 again. wtf is wrong with me... isnt screwing up of mct bad enough? what isit now? pw results releasing? oh yea, like i care. if i ever get an A, i'll run 5k continuously. and f, binomial distribution's f-ing confusing. and i hate my life i hate it, that i really like you. |
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stop pretending u dno she has a HUGE CRUSH on you for god's sake - -''' okay fine. im not in the state of saying anything as usual. i'm of no importanct to you, no? okay damn - -'''' now someone tell me, SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT TAKE THE RISK. (yes im on to a different topic pls catch up) and damn mct (changed topic). I SCORED 41 WHEN I EXPECTED 30 :DDDD but... :'((( I SCREWED BIO LIKE TOTALLY. I SCORED DAMN LOW. LIKE F-ING LOW :'((( and my chem.. holy organic, THANKS TO YOU I CANT SCORE WELL. THANKS A LOT. i lose all my marks in organic, YAYNESS - -''' ok a bit from my retardedness.. but yea. OKAY FINEEEEE I DO LOST MY MARKS IN KINETICS ALSO OKAY. >((( still... HAI. OKAY IGNORE MCT. DAMN IT. oh went vj support soccer (yes, if u noe me well enough, i do hav ulterior motive. ITS AGAINST ACSI (well i tot it ws indep, it was actually international - -) but nvm OMGGGGGG GT THIS VJ J1 BOY DAMN CUTE (yes i found out his name alr. thanks to the fact tt he's actually quite popular) and then when i gt on the bus back, I SAW ANOTHER VS BOY. DAMN CUTE. and, both were from floorball IT'S TIME I SHOULD GO SUPPORT THE NEXT FLOORBALL MATCH YAYY :DDDD and ok i cnt do my theory hw. thanks a lot. SHOULD I, OR SHOULD I NOT. D.A.M.N I.T! |
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i told you im over him, i really was. that was only because i fell for you instead. now tt u're as cold as ice to me, i wonder, wth's wrong with my heart, or am i really born to be heart broken? now, i'm in the state of getting over you. for a moment in time, he was the past, you were my present, and my future. i hoped, at least. but for now, you're becoming the past, and him... idk. what i know now is... i'm freaking confused. like REAL confused, i swear. anw. i doubt many ppl understand tt but yea, tts how its meant to be mans. OKAY LETS IGNORE MY HEARTN AND FOCUS ON MY BODY INSTEAD. I WENT FRI AFT TRNG, SAT MORNING AND TODAY'S MORNING TRNG. im bloody happy and i feel extra-special-very-extremely ACCOMPLISHED! :D well... at least i completed a countinuous 1200m today. fine, the others did 1500, OKAY?! - -''' juz cos im slow. I AM CATCHING BACK WHATEVR I LOST, i hope. okay fine lemme dream - -'' I WANT TO GET INTO FINALS! and if i don i WILL seriously cry :'(((((((((((((( and damn it. my stomach hurts. OFF TO EAT/SLACK/DO MATHS TUTORIAL - -''' byebye! |
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i don believe i'm gna say this, BUT I REALLY REALLY MISS FRENCH LESSON! even those with monsieur >( cos at least each and aft evry lesson there's sth to talk abt. 5 YRS OF FRENCH AND NO MORE LESSON IS SO EMPTY. AND NOW I CANT EVEN RMBR WAT "TRY" IS IN FRENCH!!!! i cnt believe i actually used www.wordreference.com for 5 yrs alr! more or less. O.M.G haii :(((((((( maybe i'll juzflip through everything i learnt, and try to understand it again. COS I RLY RLY MISS FRENCH! :(((( haiiii :((((((( and im soo free when im sposed t be doing maths. OH WELL. and i love lion king ttm. damn it i couldnt find the thai version on youtube. (thai voice damnn nicie i swear) ARGH! THERE WAS STH ELSE I WANTED TO BLOG ABT NOT JUZ FRENCH, BUT I FORGOT WAT IT IS. damn it. |
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HAPPY ANNIVERSARY :DDD okay. now lets talk about MCT. yay! the most screwed exams, ever, SO FAR. GP: I FELL ASLEEP during the paper! i created my own passage and my own questions and tried to answer them. wtf?! Bio: :'(((((((( MY SADDEST PAPER I SWEAR! i wanted so much to do well, and look at that, i think so much, until what was doable, became too diffficult. AND I WROTE MY ESSAY QUESTION NUMBER WRONGLY. HELP :'(((((((((((((((((( Econs: HAHAHA BIGGEST JOKE EVER. u see, H1 econs.... u are given 2 essay questions, choose 1. obviously i choose the one i knew how to do right. and both of the qns, if i rmbr correctly was macroeconomics. oh except the 1st part of the 1st one. then we have a compulsory CSQ qns (for a moment i was like csq = content strucrued qns, wait, that doesnt make sense. its CASE-STUDY question, ping.) so... i did happily... after the paper: serene's friend (regi.. somthing) : I NEVER STUDY MARKET FAILURE!!!!!! serene: (laughs evily) ping: WHAT?! MARKET FAILURE CAME OUT MEH?!?!?! serene/angeline and practically evryone arnd there started laughing. ping: WAT, U SERIOUS IT CAME OUT?! WHR?!?! OH.MY.GOD CSQ?! I TOT IT WAS ELASTICITY!!!! OH.MY.GOD. yes. tts how horrible my econs is. AHH.... chem: okay. 1st paper i didn screw up... BUT THERE GOES MY A :'( SCREW U ORGANIC. maths: i woke up with a horrible stomache. had diarrhea as soon as i reached school. DOING THE PAPER HALFWAY I HAD TO GO TO THE TOILET. honestly, tt was the 1st time i go toilet during exam, MATHS some more. AND I ONLY COMPLETED 2 QUESTIONS! success. yay! HAAAA. I TOTAL UP MY POSSIBLE MARK AND GOT A SHOCK. 30 MARKS. WTF?!?!? I NEED MATHS TUITION. ARGHHHH and thats the end of the Ping's adventurous journey through MCT. byebyee :D |
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you were there with me.. but it was as good as u weren't there. screw my life, i want those times back. and i've screwed all the papers i took. fml. i don wna screw tmr's. |
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omg i srsly have to stop screwing things up. really. |
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omg. kill me. |
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MUGGER CHOO! CHEER UP! :D see. i even made ur name pink. now say thank you sweeetie :DDDD look on the bright side of life, u're not as dark as me. okay. failed. nvm... AT LEAST U'RE NOT TRAP IN A LOVE TRIANGLE. well. MY style of love triangle, oh yea. STEM CELLS. OKAY I NOE IT'S DAMN SCANDALOUS IF ANYONE EVER SEE THIS BUT OKAY KIDDING. JIAYOU OKAY! :D |
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LTL, I MISS YOU! |
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Song: Kid teung (miss) artists: golf-mike lyrics: do you have any idea how lonely i feel, without you by my side? and all i ever think about is where are you right now, and would there be anyone to talk to you, and take care of you? i just want you to know, someone far away cares about you... all these while. (*)there're white clouds, and cool breeze blowing passed right here, a large field of blooming flowers right before my eyes, it'd be perfect, if you were here with me... (**)i plead the wind, to bring these across to you, these great things that i've seen, i want to share it with you. i plead the wind, wherever you are, please bring my heart to you. and let you know, that someone right here, is missing you all the time... what are you doing right now? are you talking to anyone? are you tired? do you miss me, when we're far apart? i urge the time to pass by quickly, i urge the clock to turn faster, so i'll be able to see you again... (*), (**), (**) i just want to let you know, that someone right here, is missing you... all the time.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- suits my mood somehow huh? :D |
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The smallest gestures, the smallest stares, and the smallest statements could make a girl's year. No joke. this statement is true, i swear. it should've been a year, already. yes, i think so. lemme get the exact date... erm. nvm. i tink it was 4th march. hurhur. anw... yes yes finally. finally i get it. :D oh well.... lets ignore this and continue. WHY HASNT HE ACCEPT MY FREN REQ. damn damn damn - -''' ok. more serious stuff. ping is cute. okay fine. tt wasnt serious. anw SHIT MCT IS LIKE IN.... (counting in progress) 4 DAYS FFFFFFFF FOUR F-ING DAY. MM JI MM. PING YOU ARE SO DEAD SO STOP BLOGGING AND GO STUDY! ------- access denied. brain refuses to study. goodbye sad world. I MISS YOU ANYWAY :D |
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life of the ping. |
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ok i don care if im gna waste my life here for 2 hours again, I AM GOING GO BLOG ABOUT THE TRIP AND I-DON'T-CARE! yes okay i care aft this im gna mug - - the camp was amazingly fun and crazy (until we left. life sucks - -) lets ignore the 1st day/night. 2nd day: so there was a polo match against the melaka team. (all boys. woooo) and obviously, ping being ping, spotted her ding ding. :DDDD hohoho. and so it was told to my team, as usual. ohmygod... okay then we had the match again at night (oh yea, i cn see agn :D) then went back to hotel. like 12 finish so reach hotel alr 12+ going to 1. and the poor polo girls still had to watch the video and talk abt strategies. hai... sooo tt night. i slept alone. chelsia was too tired and fell asleep in zhekang/jinyi's room. oooo life. oh n the teachers told us wat event we were swimming. 50,100 back, 50 free, and u're not gna believe this, 200M FREE. kill me 3rd day: there was a friendly swim meet. 200m free was torturous. oh. we had no plunging board. sad life aint it. (ohh i swam in lane 7 and guess who was the time keeper for lane 6 :D... okay nvmmmm) then i had rest. then it was 50 free. CHIONG. okay la not bad 32.77 :D then at night, we are having dinner with the melaka ppl. my hair changed style like 4 times. cos my freidn don let my tie my usual pony tail - -. in the end its still back to that HA HA HA. okayyy so when we reached, we went to talk to the girls. and obviously, there are ppl who love to make life difficult for me (but thanks anw), they went to tell the girls about you-should-know-who-if-you-were-there. wow. tts it. end of my lifeeeee... oh well he was nice enough though. im quite amazed he isnt like scared or anything. (ok mayb he is juz tt he doesnt show).. HAI.... sooo they called him over. (so poor thing rite dno wats going on also kena. HAI) and he like lifted up his hand in the position for me to shake. omg. epic. yes. my life is damn dramatic i cnt stand it. OH AND TT WAS THE DAY HE KINDA SMILE AT ME AND LIKE ACKNOWLEDGE MY EXISTENCE. OMG then aft tt was the dinner. then the GAMESS haha tong ka damn fun i tel u. this was when we got to know the melaka ppl :D omg damn fun haha. oh n there was this drunk indian man who kept on spoiling the fun. oh bitch - -''' and lemme warn u, whoever is reading. if you're a guy, and u're drunk. don't come near me. i hate alcoholics. ok lets get bck to the fun part :D so then i kena forfeited. guess wat? the pool boy gt involved agn. nvm abt wat i did hahaaaa. then aft tt play play play. till the end there was this giving of shirts. heee :DDDDD yes and i went bck tt night. went mad literally. oh and since a lot of ppl were slping in zhekang/jinyi's room tt night, gloria and chirsty came over to sleep with me. GLORIA TRIED TO SEDUCE ME I SWEAR. oh b4 going to my room we went to gloria's room for the... so called -"mardi gras" discussion, which obvously FAILEDDD 15 mins of serious speaking turned into 5 mins of valerie, gloria and theresa's speakin, and christy sleepin - - and dremaing of shaun the sheep. omg. and some dirty little secretsssss. LOL. yea then tt was it for the 3rd day/last night. LIFE SUCKSSS. 4th/last day... :( morning woke up. go bfast. then checked out. haiii headed for the pool and got suanned immediately. so suanning is international. oh yay. n he wasnt there :(((( the guys say he nt coming. bit the girls say he is. oh well. he came, t aft the swim. i took 50 back, 38 sth. not tt bad. then rest THEN 4X50M FREE RELAY, 100BACK, 4X100 MEDLEY RELAY (BACK) BACK TO BACK. yes. almost died. well maybe not as horribly as those who stl had a friendly match. haiyo.... oh n by then he ws there alr. went to cheer for tj with the melaka boys, and tj boys of cos. and was playing some ball passing with them. and then (shit i went to fb n i forget wat i wanted to type - -) oh and then there was a switching over of players. then i talked to the girls. haaa... then it was time to bath :((((( so i did. and in the toilet. the girls went mad. or was it juz me? okay nvm. hahaha. mass suanning AGAIN. but nvm it's the last time i'm evenr gna be suanned about him :(((( then ate some chicken rice balls. then... we had 15 mins to take pictures with everyone. omg. life sucks - - and I ASKED FOR HIS EMAIL BY MYSELF. emphasize, MYSELF haiiii... my life :( BUT ALL MY PICS WITH HIM NOT NICE ONEEE :((((( life sucks... okay. tts it. end of the camp. HAIII :((((( and yes, i wasted 1 hr nd 15 mins on this. not bad. OK MUG PING, MUG. cya! |
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honestly, i am damn sad. cos of you, obviously. you talk/comment/post to anyone, but me. i know. is it really THAT hard...? and u don even reply me on msn... the last thing on my mind before i sleep, was how nice you was. and sometimes it was so horrible, that i cant sleep. the first thing that came to my mind when i woke up from my sleep was, why then, did it change so much? what exactly happened betweed us? and then, i emo the whole day. hai... |
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just want you to know... not that i don want to reply ur sms. it's more of the opposite of that. u have no idea how much i want to reply you.... but the problem is.... I HATE WAITING FOR YOUR REPLY. DO U KNOW HOW MUCH I EMO WHEN U DON REPLY ME?!?! :'((((((( yes, life sucks. i know. cos afterwards when i see you, you didn't talk to me. (well. like. not as much :((( ) yes. life sucks. AND OH-MY-GOD I GOT 21 FOR GP LIKE FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE N TTS THE HIGHEST OHMYGODDDDD!!!!!!!!! hohoho. |
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omg life sucks REALLY. do u even have any idea wat you're doing, how many girls have you made them fall for you?!?! (of cos tt include me but lets juz ignore me) SERIOUSLY. when i hav the chance, there HAVE to be some people who ruin it i swear. and do u even know how jealous i am when i see u arnd other girls. (which is practically all the time - -) ANYWAY. lets juz ignore me again JAVELINE IS DAMN FUN I SWEAR LOL. ok. end of ping's life for today. LIFE SUCKS. OK IM LOOKIN FORWARD TO TMR AND MALACCA TRIPPPP :DDDDD yayness. and no. im not going on a honeymoon trip with any hottie in malacca, IM JUZ HAVING SWIM CAMPPP ^^ |
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isit juz me and my wishful thinking, or do i really stand a chance? HAIIII LIFE SUCKSSSS MY PHONE BILL IS HOLY $89.STH WTFFFFF. I TELL U I M DAMN CONFUSED. i used gee?!?! WHENNN I RMBR USING ONLY WI-FI OH-MY-GOD. dies. BLOODYY HELL MANS. and screw maths (the subject itself + tutor + assignment) oh yes. damn. A'S IS IN LIKE.. HOW MANY MONTHS TIME?!?! (count count count....) HELL. 8 HOLY MONTHS. SHIT. ITS LIKE IM PREGNANT THEN GIV BIRTH ITS STILL IN TIME FOR A LEVELS. any other better way to escape. ah no. im kidding. im not pregnant, don't worry - - i STIL haven blog abt wat i wna blog - -. oh hell. ANYWAYYYYYY... I SHOULDN'T BE HERE. I SHOULD DO MY TUTORIAL 7. (LIKE REAL) ok fine. a more realistic one. MY PIANO HOMEWORK. shit - - LIFE SUCKSSSSSS (I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I SAID TT TODAY. SUCKS) AND HOLY I SAW U EATING WITH A GIRL. ok fine. i have no right but still - - ANYWAY. shd i make this blog known, or keep it as dead with like very little visitors? HMP. ok keep it unknown. YAY. |
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omg. i need to start using code names for the ppl if not it'll be too obvious (if anyone manages to find this blog) oh well. I GOT A D-DOG FOR MY FRENCH HAHAHHAHAHAAA. NO NEED TO RETAKE! BON TRAVAIL PING (I DON EVEN KNOW IF TTS CORRECT) seriously. idk if im over sensitive or wat, but i really do feel tt you're ignoring me...... WHYYYY :'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( i hate being ignored by the people who usually don ignore me. (seriously i feel like writing wat happened but nvm) :((((((((((((((((( SERIOUSLY. i don wna heart broken over and over agn. sucks mans... im rly unlucky yea? :'(( |
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