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It's a quarter after 3, i'm all lonely and I miss you now. See what i mean when suddenly all my words rhymes (you'll know later if you continue to read on). that came out like... impromptu. so, hi to any souls out there who're actually STILL reading my blog, i'm quite amazed. ( i doubt there's any left) okay so i realised my last post was even BEFORE release of A level result. wow. that's like... SO LONG. yes, i've got my result... yes it was good, i'm happy. I had to make a decision.... and I did. I was brainwashed by all the adults around me - -''' so i chose to be an NTU Chem eng student. I hope i made the right decision... i really do T_T ok so lemme re-rant on what i posted on twitter. oh right.. now i've 1 more place to put my vids up. :D So... i've been listening to songs (duh, who doesn't?). There are certain songs i really liked.. tried looking for the piano scores.. couldn't find any that I was happy with... So, i thought, why not i write it myself then? and i did, i've been doing that since..... Feb 18th (i went to youtube to check it). cool. The procedure goes like.... I listen I write the melody line I google for the chords online/transpose the chords online/ figure out my own chords I play I record I get pissed off.... (cos of wrong notes) then I upload. After a while.. my dad suggests.... i should start composing. and i told him. I have no inspiration. :( then he said, it's okay, it takes time.... it indeed took quite sometime... it's been at least a month since he told me that. i've been trying to write sentence with rhyming words.... But i could never do it. but now... YOU are my inspiration. whether you know it or not. i don't think you know, but i also think you'll know soon. I'm not exactly very close about it hahaha, as usual huh. so.... Thanks to you, on saturday (like 4th june)... after i finished teaching my last student... i suddenly had all these sentences with words that rhymes in my head. so i went to the office, looked for rough paper... and started writing down whatever i could. I've no idea if this crush's gna work out. i've known that you exist for almost 3 months (tts damn short)... but it was a VERY SHORT period of time (even shorter than 3 months)... that transformed you from just someone i find really nice.... to a MAJOR crush. TBH, this is my 2nd time experience this kinda feeling... the 1st wasn't a very nice one either hohoo. :( (but obviously u're nt my 2nd crush. if u were to count all you're probably my 134739605th crush or sth) Idk if i even stand a chance... but at where i am now. i am NOT going to just let you go. but for now i'm not gonna do anything...yet. I've been heartbroken for the past 19 years cos all my crush are scared of me TT_TT i DO NOT want the same to happen to you. ok. it's half past 3 and i'm actually quite sleepy, so if you'd excuse me.... see you in my dreams ;) |
